MY LIFE (BLOG)

BLOG#9

13/02/2022

I am so jealous. I know this a very weird way to start but after my best friend Ensis is the next person I trust and is close to. And Ensis in away consider me as her diary and she tells me everything about her life. But sometimes I get jealous of the fact figuring out that there's so many similar things happening and likings between them. I mean honestly, I don't mind but I do get taken aback when I hear things individually from them but it's the same thing. So, I keep repeating my advice to them. I know to be best friends you don't have to be similar but still I get a little jealous that I don't relate to any of them.

However, I realized things about my friendship with my friends. It's that you care, worry and treat your friends similarly but my friendship with each friend or the context of the friendship you have with a specific person is different. Let me explain taking my friends.

1.Sonakshi
She is my best friend and soulmate because she understands me, and I understand her perfectly. We know what each other mean quickly. We trust each other a lot and is comfortable with each other. She is the closest to me. She's the person I always open myself to. I express how I always feel (not always, not everything) about certain things and I do share deep conversations with each other.

2.Ensis
We both trust, care and understand about each other but it's not the same as me with my best friend. We both our not each other's first choice. We both are comfortable with each other and her existing is enough for me to feel better. The way she helps me and be with me and how I act with her is very different considering how I am with others. I tend to be excited and always on my toes around her. Since she tells me everything, I tend to act around her in a way that will make her feel that I am ready to listen to her whenever she needs someone.

3.HJ
I trust her and is comfortable with her as well. But we are not deeply involved with each other emotionally. We know simple things that happens in our daily life and since we are in the same class, I am physically close to her as well. We are very comfortable at expressing ourselves through hugs and we have our own inside jokes. And we tend to be considerate about each other.

4.TJ
She is one of the people I am very comfortable with, and I trust her as well. We got closer because we had so many similarities and similar interests between each other. She trusts me on things before she anything about it to anyone else. And she's the person I fangirl with since I told you we have very similar tastes (at least in somethings). But then again, we haven't really gone that deep into our friendship. And she is one of my friends that I am very comfortable being around with.

(I am only going mention these 4 because I am closest to them).

So, what I want to say is that in general humans have similarities but different from each other. Every one of my friends are different and the way they want me to treat them and comfort them are different.

And I'll be honest, even though I am comfortable sharing about my thoughts and close to few of my friends, but I sometimes honestly don't know how to act around them. The reason is because I talk to them through calls, and we don't get to spend time together face to face. And sometimes even though I spend my whole time with other friends in my class it's really hard to get myself to open up to them. We catchup with thing that happens in our life, but we don't have deep conversations often.

So, remember whatever relationship in your life, even if it's your sister, friend, parents, spouse or anyone you need to have trust, communication and understanding between each other.

And... tomorrow is Valentine's Day. I am too young to date, so I am happy single. I do have my friends with me, so I am not alone.

'LOVE' is such a pure thing. Like even if we are young, we love. We love our parents, siblings, friends even though the way we show it and do it is different according to the relationships and people. For me the way I hold different people in my life is different as well.

Today I have no idea what I actually wrote. I feel like I wrote without an actual context. So, let's just pretend I just talked about friendship or people in my life.

But still thank you for reading. Remember if you don't have a purpose to live in the future that purpose will eventually come.

14/02/2022

Love is so magical. Ok so love is seriously some magic, like there is so many definitions and meanings behind this simple word but complicated emotion named LOVE. I know though, just because it has so much meaning doesn't mean it's magical.

For me though love is magical because it could do the most impossible and the unpredictable things. It can pass any obstacle and challenge (if it wants to). Sure, it sometimes does fail but that doesn't mean you should stop loving or stop believing in love.

And surely love could be POISON to some and MEDICINE to some. Love could HURT or HEAL it's the duality of love. But the feeling of love is just very special regardless (negative or positive) of the way it comes to you.

For one thing no one can actually pinpoint when, where we started loving the people we love. We can't control our emotions. Even if you don't like loving someone, it can't be helped.

Amazingly when we mention about 'LOVE' people seemingly assume it's romantic love. Which could be or couldn't be in different peoples' lives. We don't only love our partners but our parents, friends, siblings and ourselves too. Sure, the way we love each of them is different but the emotion in general is LOVE.

{There could be someone special in your life it doesn't always have to be a romantic relationship you have with that person. That 'special' person could be anyone in your life and we love them dearly.}

One thing is love could be your weakness, but it could also be your strength. Love is also an amazing, very powerful weapon (positively take this even though it could be taken negatively as well).

When you realize about love don't deny it, accept it. Considering that every human being is different from each human. I know accepting could be hard. IF you can't accept it don't deny it (only if it is good kind of love though). Take some time and figure out your true emotions.

Love could be a want or a need in peoples' life. Sometimes we don't really think about wanting or needing love until you stop for a minute and think. We don't actually even realize how much we love people around us until we take a minute and think or until someone point it out to us. Love could even change a person for good or bad.

I read this story and in one chapter the person thinks to himself "What is love?" then points and explains the meaning taken from the Bible (as it's mentioned in the story). Reading that one thing the first thing I realized was how much I love my friends. I knew I loved my friends, and they meant a lot to me. But after reading that simple text, it put so much more meaning to the love I had for my friends.

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Well, these thoughts have been going around my mind lately and I thought about sharing. If there is something I have mentioned wrong or missed, please excuse me since I really don't know THAT much about love (and I am not in love to talk like this).

Just hope that everyone appreciates 'Love' and give your heart a chance. And love YOURSELF as well in the process. And don't forget to appreciate the people you love. You never know maybe that's exactly what they need in this moment.

TAKE CARE,
BYE :)