MY LIFE (BLOG)

BLOG#12

21/03/2022

I just met a person- that's irrelevant. However, that person asked me "How do I learn these ways of life?", since I do tend to say some deep things about lifetime to time. Then I replied, "Well just experience, emotions and different thoughts that come to me, and some are from reading fanfics you know?"

And it's true something's I learn is through FANFICS but books as well.

FANFICS
They are written by people who interests in writing and wanting to share their stories. There are some stories that purely fictional, but they also have mentions of real struggles of people.

So far, all the stories I've read involved real life events, struggles, emotions and a lot more. These some I've read in life had helped me make out some messed up thoughts I've had while some brought me hope as well.

So back to my RANT,
So, after I said that, 'someone' that was just sitting listening to this conversation suddenly said, "How can you feel and learn things from reading those fictional stuff?". And I'll say what I told then because what she said didn't make sense to me at all.

The thing is when we read things, we imagine what we read. When we watch something sometimes, we cry, laugh even get embarrassed sometimes. one thing is when e read or watch something even though we don't know we'll feel something without knowing exactly what we feel.

The things we feel sometimes we might have no idea about it. And if the author of the book we read is very detailed and expressive then we'll be able to gather more emotions and insight to the story. And that is when I read things (online or real) I take it to myself and try to understand it.

If I am not busy, I'll be thinking about it when I am free or bored. From thinking like that I just get to know myself more.

Some might agree with this, and some might not because we all have different ways of thinking and seeing things. That's just how life is. we are all different and we live differently. We could have some similarities as well.

However, this is just few thoughts I had. Life is something precious and it's hard to get a human life. So, live it happily and nicely while you can. Please treasure this life you got.

(PS: Now reading this again I can't exactly tell what I wanted to tell since this is messily written. So, I understand if you don't get the clear idea what I wrote. And I don't remember what I felt then to correct this as well ^_^)

21/05/2022

Hey!
I've been wanting to go for counseling because I really want to kinda have normal life. I've even asked my best friends if it was ok for her to accompany me. But then.... after deciding to go the following days because of various reasons we/I couldn't get the chance to go and now we have holidays for about 2-3 weeks.
But then again, I sometimes feel I shouldn't go when I get happy but when I get triggered I really want to go.

These days my emotions and thoughts are all over the place without any control. I'll try to do my best :).

23/05/2022

Today I was having this conversation with this imaginary person.

 I've wasted two days completely just watching the TV from morning to evening and then my father told me that "I've been given the freedom so I could choose the right things not the wrong things. How long am I going to keep on doing this. And if you keep doing this you are just going to lose your freedom". those were his words precisely.

And then it made me think that as a student I should study and while studying my parent shave given me the privilege to enjoy life as well. And I should be happy that I do have a lot of things other people want to have; nice friends, great parents, a place to live, supportive family so it made me want to become someone they could be proud about.