Love in North

The Truth Untold I; ACE

cw// includes hate topics or sensitive topics

Ace -

"Hon, should I buy this perfume? Check it for me please" lapit sakin ng girlfriend ko with the tester. She's pouting while roaming her eyes at the stalls.

"I'll handle this, Hon. Go check some more if you still want to buy something." Enganyo ko sa kanya. Mabilis na lumiwanag ang mukha nito at niyakap ako ng mabilis bago din umalis.

Shopping is one of her hobbies na hindi na niya nagagawa dahil palaging full ang schedule namin. It made me want to be with her while she's doing this dahil mas sanay daw siyang kasama ako.

Napailing na lang ako at mabilis na nagspray sa wrist ko ng perfume na tinutukoy ni Czarina before sniffing it. Napatigil ako nang pamilyar ko itong maamuyan. It's kinda familliar to my smell buds.

Ishiro.

Nagsitaasan ang balahibo ko nang maalala ko siya. Even his smile, touch and scent came back to my system. Napailing ako at mabilis na naibaba ang perfume. It's my type of fragrance but I don't want my girlfriend to use this. Hindi ko gugustuhing makinita ang iba kapag siya ang kasama dahil ayokong mangaliwa.

"Find another one, Hon. I don't like the scent" I lied.

"But it's good naman, Hon? I thought you like this kind of scent? Nasabi mo sakin yon.." gulat na alintana niya kaya umiling na agad ako.

"But I prefer a different scent for you. Let's just find another one?" Alok ko. Tinitigan niya pa ako ng matagal bago siyang tumango at hinila ako papunta sa perfume section.

Napabuntong hininga ako at pinilit alisin si Ishiro sa isip ko. For the peace that Czarina deserve to have because since the day that I comforted her, is the day that I started to realize her struggles. How painful her life is and I just woke up one day.. I suddenly like her. Madaming dahilan para gustuhin siya and we didn't really started dating after I confessed dahil hindi ganoon kadaling makuha si Czarina but I didn't gave up on pursuing her.

The struggles that I faced with her and how she trusted me with her all.. Ang dami kong issues na kinaharap pero hindi niya ako binitawan. Even if it's too much, hindi niya ako pinag-isipan na magagawa ko lahat ng pinaparatang ng mga tao.

Like, when we're just starting as a loveteam inissue na agad ako na nakikipagdate sa co-artist ni Czarina or even sa Co-artist ko sa YunLim. Kaliwa't-Kanan na batikos and even people who doesn't even knew the story behind nakikigatong na with Calling me Trash, Player, An ugly jerk to play with women's hearts.

There is also an issue na nakipag halikan daw ako sa stylist ko behind Czarina's back dahil lang sa angled photo na kinuhanan ng isang staff backstage. Meron din na Pinipilit ko daw si Czarina to do whatever I want dahil alam kong nahuhulog na ito sakin.

Maliban sa batikos I also got so many scolds not just from my managers but even to my directors. Dahil sa dami ng issue na pinakalat patungkol sakin madaming events namin ni Czarina ang muntik nang ma-cancel at muntik na din akong iwan ni Czarina dahil ayaw sakin ng manager niya. They said that I'm giving a bad vibes to her kaya gusto nilang ilayo sakin.

"Ulit! Mali-mali ka ng ginagawa Ace! Paulit-ulit na lang hindi ka ba marunong!? I thought you're an Ace by your name pero simpleng kissing scene hindi mo magawa?! Why would the author pick you and say you're the best." The director of our film harshly gave his feedback. Napayuko ako at pinigilan hindi maiyak. Not because I got criticize but because I already feel like I'm not destined to he here.