Love in North

Sayonara

Troy Gaiden Garcia

Loving My Husband is all pure in so many ways and things..

He's my drink when I'm down

My only bitter-sweet taste that I crave

The hand that I grip to when I'm tired

The only shoulders who welcomes my weight

The tissue that wipe my tears

The only warm thing I know that would engulf me in any occasion or season

The mirror who never judge me when the world is not looking.

The safest place I know is beside him.

My other half

My all.

Ishiro Bernando-Garcia is My all.

It's heaven to see his smile. Paulit-ulit kong sinasabi yan sa isip ko at hindi ako nagsasawa o nagrereklamo, kung maari lang wag na siyang sumimangot pa.

Naaalala ko pa lahat ng pangyayare na pinagsaluhan namin, kahit masaya pa yan, malungkot, masakit, mahirap, nakakadurog, nakakasuko. Lahat-lahat. Hindi ko gugustuhing kalimutan.

Hindi niya alam na kapag natutulog na siya pinagmamasdan ko siya ng matagal para kabisaduhin ang mukha niya. Kapag msy iniinda akong masakit iniisip kong huwag muna kasi kasama ko siya.

Ayokong mawala ng kasama siya. Ayokong habang hinahabol ko ang hininga ko ay hahawakan niya ako sa kamay habang naiyak at nagmamakaawa na wag muna. Ayoko.

Ayokong ako ang bibitaw sa kamay niya.

Tama nang mawawala ako pero hindi ko mismo maipaparamdam na bumitaw ako sa kanya. Tama nang ngayon lang ako hindi na lalaban.

Sa susunod na lang ako babawi at hindi na aalis. Sa susunod ipagdadamot ko na siya. Sa susunod hindi na ako papayag na maduwag. Madami akong plano sa susunod kaya hindi na para hadlangan ko ang kapalaran namin pareho ngayon.

Visiting him once in his dream, feeling the different radiant of happiness within him from a far. Looking beautiful as always and again, he's carrying another angel. Sadly not mine but still, it's a miracle.

Getting close to him was never my choice. I'll always be contented with looking at him. To never bother My husband and to never make him guilty for loving another man and moving forward without me. I'll always be okay as long as he's fine.

But it's painful how you will always feel the heavy presence of someone you once truly loved.

He looked back at me

His pure smile disappear and got replaced with a painful stare as he cry and sob while looking at me. Doing bigger steps to see me. Like what My husband would do..

"Troy" he called. "You visited.."

"For the last, Mahal." I smile at him.

"Visit me often..? Please?" Ani niya but I can't.

I shook my head

"I'll wait for you here no matter what." I took a step back when he tried to ge near me. I see that he's frustrated. "I love you and your angels.."

"I-I love you too" loved.

Baby.. you don't have to make this so hard for us

I want to stay longer, to talk to him without any worries of disappearing any moment later but this lifetime is not mine to control and decide. I'm not the main character of this story. I hope to my next life, I'll be his partner in everything again from start to it's end.

Waiting for him is always worth it kaya maghihintay na lang ako.

To the next story, it would be ours.

To the next story I would have My North and Aceila too.

Love,
The First