Love At First Flight (Hernandez #1)

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It's been two days when my sister left, I can't still accept it. Pilit ko paring sinasabing hindi totoo na nagpaalam nga siya. I can't stand seeing them mourning my sister in front of me, I decided to stay on my condo until the day of her last. 

Next week will be my graduation day, it will be my first time attending it without her.

"Paulo, let's break up..." I said, while sobbing. Hinatid niya ako sa condo ko. Hindi ko kakayanin na makita silang lahat na nagkakaganoon dahil lang sa kapatid ko.

"What are you talking about? cool off is fine for me, Lavigne. You're just emotional, hmm? love let's fixed yourself first–"

"No... No! let's break up. Pagod na ako... pati ikaw nadadamay, nahihirapan na ako sa relasyon na to. Ayoko nang masaktan kapa. You've been through a lot these days, let me go, mahal... Please? you don't deserve a people like me.." I begged, crying in front of him.

"Nawala lang ang kapatid mo, Lavigne. Kakayanin natin tong dalawa, it can make our relationship stronger. Hmm? take a rest, i'll cook your favorite food." Pag aro niya na para bang hindi ko siya itinataboy palayo.

There's no spark anymore, there's no butterflies anymore, I cannot feel the love I have felt when I first saw him. There's no spark in his eyes anymore, he cannot feel the butterflies anymore. He's already giving up yet he still manage to love me, to pursue me.

"All you can do is to fight your love from me, all you can do is to love me. How about yourself? did you love yourself first before me? you loved me too early, but I loved you too late. I am releasing my hands from holding yours, yet you keep tightening it. Sumobra ka sa pagmamahal sa akin na minsan naiisip kopa ba kung totoong mahal moba ako, o naaawa kalang dahil ayaw mong saktan ako?" I asked, holing his hands.

"I.. Lavigne totoong mahal kita, I don't pity you just because of what happened, I loved you more than I loved myself. As what I told you, you are my first love, and you will be my last. I won't forgive myself if I ever hurts you. Don't let me go. Mahal kita, Lavigne..." It was my first time seeing him crying.

He's been holding it. How can I  let him go? paano ako bibitaw kung patuloy niyang hinihigpitan ang hawak sa kamay ko?

"If you love me, you'll let me go..."

 He breathes heavily after turning his head to me, closing his eyes. "Pagod na ako! napapagod din ako! pero hindi ako napagod na mahalin ka! when you said you need space, binigay ko, binigay ko kahit labag sa kalooban ko. Ilang buwan kang ganoon, ilang buwan din akong nasasaktan. I am asking myself if my love for you isn't worth it, kung tama pa bang ipagpatuloy ko na mahalin kita! pero minamahal parin kita, Lavigne. Mahal kita, sobra-sobra. But you kept pushing me away, you kept hurting me. Am I not worth to love? I've been asking myself, what's wrong of loving you? anong mali na mahalin ka?" Tanong niya na mas lalong nagpaiyak sa akin.