hey, long time to talk? I wanted to update because this night was really hard for me for some reason... I was 21 days clean from cutting about an hour ago. I've been doing really good, doctor appointments, visiting hours, Mady, lizzie, Kaija, more people care... Devlin. I've found my music that I love so fucking much...... But, when something bad happens, I get the flood of everything fromm7th grade all the way from when I lived In Washington. The only thing that's actually bad is, Mia, Im sorry... and I noticed I fuck up a lot. Yeah. I also cant sleep without something to snuggle. no joke. And I found that Jacob cares more about me than most people out there. Thanks guys. I really appreciate you... umm people think im a slut because ive gotten farther than making out with one guy ive been with for not totally that long. Um ive changed aot since the last time you've heard from me tbh....
ive smoked vape, thyme, and some other herb,
Mady has become a big part of my life haha
ive ditched somewhere again and went downtown and almost lost my virginity... but like it was that time of the month so I couldn't, and I don't think I would've given in... idk it scares me, what if im not good enough.l I haven't cut until an hour ago but theyre deep af.
ive tried killing myself, without going to a real hospital bout maybe 4 times... idrkatbh...
madys sweater is lyfe
dude this is kinda weird but my boobs are bigggggggerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
my anxiety isn't that bad, but when it comes its bad, like I wanna cry and throw up... everywhere...
and my depression is holy sheeeeettttttt through the roof.
Oh yeah im good friends with maddi, and if youre reading this youre so not innocent and ily and im here
I used body nair on my unibrow even though its not supposed to go on your skin haha rebelllllllllllllllllllllllll
see you later assfaces
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Non-FictionThis is my journal, nothing special, I've written one before, you should read it. Umm if you dont like the negative things in life, I don't suggest this. But i encourage you to read it. Get a different out look on life, another perspective. My name...
