Crazy Beautiful Life

Day 15 of 365

I

Just

Don't

Know

Anymore

I just got up late and then went to school and in math I finally got it, but forgot once I got home, in which that means I haven't done any of my homework this week

Turkish we didn't really do anything that I remember...

Computers I actually tried to make a game, but made a relatable post instead and it was really funny.

Lunch I had grapes and then made another jello thing, but it looked really gross, and lizzie was so grossed out aha

At Recess me and mia went to the upper bulding bathroom and put the jello shit in there and then we sat in like the road/playground and I took the perfect picture of her. And then this girl jumped over a cone and ate it right next to me... i couldn't stop laugjing holy shit

English we just talked about sensitive topics and I drew on my notes and it looked really vintage and prettyyyy

Social studies I just sat there and then she made mia read and I was scared she was gonna call on me so I started freaking out and I cried a little bit and then I had to cough but I couldn't and I was freaking out.

Science we were talking about engery and then he lit a light bulb with an electric ball thingy and it was so cool and I was like freaking out about how cool it was. And it was assembly schedule so we had another hour to go and me and mia talked and made fun of Ashton haha we're so fucking mean

After school was the worst part of my day

I got my cupcakes and then put them on the table and my teacher said we had dance club, and i didn't wnat to go to dance club. So I just started freaking out like I was shaky and I couldn't think and everything just came at once and I needed to talk to someone and me and lizzie are

Oh

Sorry

Were*

Tight so she talked to me and then she was like following my as I was walking with corbin and I was scared and stressed and just freaking out so I just told her to go awag, I didn't mean it to be mwan.

I just couldn't fucking think

So then me and corbin went behind a building and talked and some other stuff and it was pretty fucking great tbh. But my phone wouldn't stop vibrating so I checked it and I got texts from kaija and my teacher... and then I was like, oh yeah... dance club

So me and corbin did some other stuff and then we said bye and I got my binder and checked my texts

I'm out of dance club

Not that I care^^

And then kaija got mad at me

I did nothing to her

At all

And lizzie said she was crying, like why, I didn't do shit.

And it's overreacting,  I didn't wanna go to club and I didnt. I wanted to do something else, sorry babe life isn't all about you

So kaija told me that she

Fucking hates me at the moment

And she actually is done with me

And will never speak to me again

I asked what I did, and i guess I was being a bitch

Everything is my fault

I'm sorry princess

Let me fix that for you

No bitch

So then I got home and talked to mia and mady and then just decided,

If everyone just fucking hates me so bad, fine

Goodbye

So I looked up how much of a dose of pills it takes to overdose and die

But then I got distracted and took a bath, not cutting btw

Now all I have to do is my hair and skin routine and then I'll decide what to do from here

Idk what to do for tomorrow

Everyone hates me

I'll just hang in the clinic and wait for 2-3 period to be over if I do go, or not get sick from pills

Haha I'm so pathetic

Worth nothing.

At least I have someone I can call a real ride or die

Mia my boo bear

My chika

Lol okay

When I think about it, I wonder y people hate me and then I'm like, duh ur a piece of shit

I'm glad everyone will be better without me. Someday if not tonight

Just wait for the comments to roll in with how dumb I am right?

1/15/15 9:10PM