Euphoria x Melancholy

before you go

// this isn't intended to anyone so plss don't consider anything. Just a lil bit of my philosophical thoughts //

I get attached very quick sometimes
And it's hard to bear
When they suddenly leave you..

It keeps on happening so much
Now I'm used to feel nothing when i hear

Goodbye to you..

I'm lost in between the forest tree shades, wondering if i can find the same as you?

But it's ok..
Like you did,
Now let me comfort you,
Before you too bid
me farewell on your train.

Let me tell tales of the two birds
Who died in a brutal blizzard
or the two innocent kids lost in lives of their ponderings of past
or the two soldiers who fought hard but died in a big blast

But their stories became a forever.

Let me whisper into your ears
About how your steps sounded when you walked on those stairs,
Life was full of just nightmares,

But you still sing like a nightingale;

When the stardust's shine was missing
And the sky became pale

Here you came,
Sunrise in a forest frame.

At night 3 am not all is romantic
Sometimes it's creepy, eerie, unbearable agony, unwanted roaches feeding on our bodies,
Cuts, bruises, ropes and knives,
And there you'd be, and me, with smile so soft,
So dark, so brittle, all gone faded into mists of our lives.

Somtimes you gave me hope, up inside my skies with a purple tint,
When i cried, and when you lied that u didn't, i gave you whatever i could, but to cope up with what we didn't, it wasn't easy.

Sometimes you'd go away just because you couldn't be found, couldn't be kept, nobody would stay

Oh how you wish the melancholic tunes turned into euphoria blooming into your veins, and how much you wish the dead winter be gone now for the spring to arrive and blossoming your flowers to spread it's fragrance everywhere, and you say you wished to die, like i did, but deep inside we know it's just that we want someone to help us live, we ache, but we cry when we trust and we ache, but we die when we can't anymore

Oh how much i wishes things were a lil bit different, the grayscale was coloured with your paintbrushes and the monochrome heard songs in stereo mode,
Like from the aching heart to beating again, the unnoticed body to being adored and hugged when it pains, the broken soul be mended its vains, and the traumatized mind to be peacefully resting again.

When you say you wanna go
Don't you actually mean you wanna stay more? But then who cares about our presence, or even if they come ask us how we're, where are those who share the memories of happiness and those who don't hesitate to give a hug to our grieving souls, and a lil but of knowing more than asking is enough, it's enough to feel like someone knows us, someone actually doesn't forces us, who don't need an explanation for everything we say, who don't need to be asked just to stay.

Into a world, where innocent flowers aren't plucked but embraced and the thorns don't hurt the lover's grace, that's were we all wish to belong, that's where our stories truly belong, off from this world of terror and fear, onto a new journey, I've, suffered enough, packed my luggage, and now I'm, jiggered enough, binding my shoelace.

And we all love to reminisce about the  things, too many to speak, we couldn't and things we experienced, too much to bear, when we get tired of our lives, breeze blowing from the window comes to stand still, the pouring raindrops stop falling, and the moon disappears into the nightsky, ready for a deep slumber like i wish for now.

Let's just promise to meet again but happily this time, in all but the bliss, the joy, the moments of having someone to be there always, which we all deserve.

Before you go.

// Listen to the song "Before you go" by Lewis Capaldi too //