Euphoria x Melancholy

To you, To me, To us

// Written for a girl of my dreams, I'm not sure if it's the one i suspect her to be.. but still considering them same i write this //

Will you come back

To read this?

You'll return i know,

That's all i wish.

To you,

A letter by me---

To me

You're like the shade of a blossoming tree.

To you

I'm a home, where you can be carefree

Do You know how much i feel the scorching heat of the reality 

When you're not here beside me?

And do you know how much i want to be your pet kitty

Just so that i could get your hug,

Do you know how much it would mean to me?

To me

Your fragrance is like the smell of soil in monsoons

To you

My arrival was like the shooting stars across the gaze of the moon

Do you know how much i feel disgusted by the people all around, passing by me, because everywhere I'm trying to find you, to find your traces in the empty streets.

And do you know how much i want to shine in your nightskies

Just so that i feel blessed by your stares,

Do you know how much happy i would be?

To me

You were so dear, yet you call yourself a stranger

To you

I was familiar, unknowingly you knew we had been together

Do you know how much I've felt like a stranger to the people i loved, and those who loved me, i was all but a tiny dot in the sky hidden amongst the clouds

And do you know how much i wanted to believe we're not strangers,

Just so that i could hold your hands and kiss you

Do you know the longings i kept within me?

To me

You were that girl of my dreams whom i couldn't find ever

To you

I was that boy you didn't wanted to let go, but stay with forever

Do you know how many dreams i died, how many dreams i relived to be with you for a few more moments, just because you never came in my reality.

And do you know how much i want to stay with you, always, really

Just so that no one can hurt you again, well for u i did worry,

Do you know that i wanted to hold your burdens within me?

To me

We were like sun and the moon, when i live you die

To you

We were meant to be scattered, the new birds yet to fly

Do you know how much painful it was, whenever you said you wanted to die, i just wanted to hug you so bad,  cry and tell " No you can't as long as i live, be with me, let's be the evening where the day meets the night, baby"

And do you know how much i was nervous, but bravely now I'll say

That i wanted you to fly with me like lovebirds in the sky

Do you know how much i craved for your love, how weak without you is this fallen me?

You're so far away, why don't you respond me anymore.

You said that you love me, then why won't you return? Where's your love gone now, i can't wait for it so much more!

I was in hospital, thinking about you, thinking why should i live when you die,

Wishing my attempt was not a failure, what's the use of the term "survive"

When there's not you for whom to live with a life

24/7 you come in my mind, i keep saying i don't love you, my heart is empty,

But maybe it's because you ain't here, with you gone, I'm all but a hollow sea clam,

The pearl you were, shining and precious, where are you drowning when I'm becoming tears of the sea?

Why were you there, if you were to go?

And now how much i wish, do you know, for watching you smile, blush with me, in all our highs and low.

My home, my family never thought of me like you did ever,

Why do i feel so abandoned in this lonely world?

Everywhere is a crowd but not a single one to understand me.

So many things remained unspoken, unheard,

So many glimpses of your face i wanted to see, i couldn't.

So many echoes of your voice through the caves in the dark, i missed.

So many lives, dreams we died, we lived, we cried, yes we did.

Oh how much i longed to see you,

To stare your eyes, to calm your cries,

To hear your songs, to be immersed in joy.

Would you meet me one day again,

My Mitsuha, i wanna see you, meet you, remember you in my happy memories we had yet to make, walk through all the terrains, through heat and through the rains,

To me, to you, to us,

We will be watching the stars, on nights moonlit,

We will be walking the stairs, of countless journeys

To me, you were just as soft as a cushion i wanted to keep my heads on whenever i felt like crying, and i wish, to you, i would be the blanket to cover you as the dawn enters the sky, the now fallen hopes within our hearts would be lit.

We had been through so much, the universe never let us meet,

I just want you here, to tell me, it was all worth it.

~ あなたが恋しい;