Euphoria x Melancholy

Find me

//No judgy fudgy bitchin here pls, check this above song later btw, also do read prev part "Walk Away'' which i wrote long back before this as this part may be similar to that. Also poem not intended for anyone, just some imaginary scenarios as always so dw//

Incentives, a treasure chest,
And all go burn their fears with no rest.

But sorry, my love isn't so precious for anyone to get,
Get off me with a sorry, from their sacried crimes people just always escape.

I don't know what I'm feeling
I don't feel like telling- explaining
Things that i wanted them to find themselves.

I was just beside the boulder, couldn't find me?

Uh oh, maybe I'm just on invisible mode, standing on their own shadows, while they face the sun i just get no light, maybe that's what's the case-

I don't know how long it has been here
I don't know how long it will take, a day? An year?
For them to realise i needed them too, when I'm in such a mess?

I was just beside that tree, couldn't find me?

Uh oh, my wasteful eyes hoping to see, that they don't care unless they're just free, I'm just standing maybe running, and now i opened my shoelaces.

Just so that I can fall once or twice
And get my head whacked on the ground,
Maybe taste the soil under the dusky sky,
Will you notice me a bit more, if i have another wound.

My head doesn't works, floor's covered with the spilled rice,
Lost as i am, hydrating myself with a poison.
Maybe it rains outside for just a season, but my heart always stays perpetual in all seasons.

Anyways anyways, i don't care, but my glassy heart cracking thru a nighmare-
Silent mode, airplane mode, on my phone screen, i just dead- stare.

The clouds are dried up, just like leaves of autumn, winds fallen,
Sieze the darkness, depths, miles beneath my smiles, so broken.

Is it really easy like they say
Don't you know how much I try to escape.
Not the pain and the just burdens
But the need that i want you to stay.

Boring boring, waiting games I've enough to play,
But just want this time one to put no limits on the stay.

Don't make me wait so long, or I'll crash on my way,
Finding where you're or just to find you too escaped?

"I should go away" after breaking my heart, that's all they can say?

"I want you to stay" i scream, i beg but people are too selfish to not play-

With my feelings, trust, with hearts
With my time, energy, and with efforts.

Everytime i speak my heart
Why do i feel detached with all
Why my hands still shiver, is it hurt,
Or I'm shaking, falling through this poetic waterfall?