Euphoria x Melancholy

Secret Song of the Withering Flower

A.N. this was a spontaneous one i wrote thinking of some songs going in my head, the music in my mind to form these cud be related to songs like Hold On, Zen Zen Zense, They don't know about Us (1D), and Middle of the Night (monsta x). Also it was supposedly in my mind singing with two vocals so let it be kinda a bit duet types song? Okay?

And this is not intended for anyone. It's just my hopeless romantic self visualising unrealistic scenarios. And giving my heartbreak(be it of past or future) a good ending which ik won't happen in reality. Lol i personally am someone who doesn't really believe in love anymore but yet.. deep within i just wanna be loved a way it doesn't hurts anymore.. unfortunately I'm not that lucky ig. Anyways. Here's the poem, ending the book with a lil bit of happiness i wished for ..

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//He//

I don't feel like fighting anymore
I'm a protagonist meant to break in lore

Maybe that's why i say i don't love anyone,
And maybe that's what i say when they say they're in love with me,

I don't want what you want
You want me, just me

But i don't want what you want
Because it would be just not right, to make you dream, and then hurt you baby

And I just don't know how long I'm here
(Just how long am i here)

Hatin myself for being not there,

Crying, sleepless, all night sitting on a chair,
(I just wanna hug you teddy bear)

//She//

Wondering what should i tell you, "not to expect happy endings in a nightmare?"

But what can i do when everything seems to be falling apart,
I don't wanna burden anymore your already abyss-kissed heart

Just don't wanna break you,
Don't know how to help you,
Maybe I'm not true,
I don't know if i have you
Or i gonna lose you,
Again this time?

I don't know where I'm going
Drowning nights sowing
I still don't know how to breathin
When you don't feel alive

Can i ever save you
Looking at the days few
Don't know how to say you
That i wanna heal you

I think I'm just so boring
Not even knowing
Any way of curing
I'm Just good for nothing
All these thoughts keep me rottin

But still there's something,
Which is not nothing,
Getting me crazy, are you a fairy,
Is it my stupidity, can i be a flower and you a honeybee?

I think she's so perfect,
For you, I'm incorrect,
But don't know where you're happy
I'll let go of all my worry-

Take this little heart
Which finds you like a shelter
Let me reside in a street corner
My hopes feel so tattered
What should i dream,
What's just better?

//He//

I'm in such a confusion, is it just an illusion
Stuck in supression, fighting on my regression

I think it's just a tragedy,
Just another half story
All the time... Oohhh

You say you see stars shining in the sky (i see you cry)

And that I'm the moon, which makes you forget rest of the sky
(It makes me cry)

But I'm just a moon, ain't i?

When your day begins, I'll just have to leave (and die)

Don't wanna break you, or leave you alone

Don't know how to say i wanna accept this, don't know if it's right, how to breath another night
(Have i already moved on or maybe I'm still stuck?)