Euphoria x Melancholy

bmf

They say bmf

It's "be my food"
They will eat you as long as they're hungry
And once they're done or found another tasty food, they will leave you abandoned till their priorities change again.

One day they will appear infront of you
Another day they will disappear from you

One day they will talk about fun
Once you sound boring they will go away run

All they can do is to Be More Fake
Don't trust em, some will put your trust to stake.

Friendship is not for sale,
But they trade it so often here.

What's more fake than making a hundred friends
And treating none with the attention, care and affection they deserve.

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P.S. I'm having heavy triggers of bmf shitz so pls never ever try to say that to me. Friendship isn't a deal of business or something like u can do by merely saying it. I believe if it has to happen it will happen by own will and time. I hate the fact there are so many things i post or write in my book, but none of these bmf fucked shitz try to know or see these. If they're too busy to give me any time I'd suggest em to never ever try saying a bmf coz they all are like this. They want u to be there for em, but themselves have the "Right" to be unavailable and busy, go away on hiatus for months, when u need em. Such ppl usually think friendship is a joke. They've degraded the bond itself to be so pitifully nothing but a temporary time pass without understanding the other person or giving em enough time or comfort in times of need.

And personally, i don't even want friendships here from such ppl. Who have no time for u actually. Just saying hi hru, or merely replying ur texts doesn't makes a friendship. And I no more trust ppl like that especially in wattpad almost everyone's like that. They love making friends, but they don't know how to keep friends. After a few days of talking, they'll get busy in their irl life and forget u completely with time. And be like "Hey bestie u forgot me?" after one year of no msg from em lmao. What a friendship wow like u had no time not even a bit for friendship yet u want em to be friends with u. I'm not of the sorts so pls stay away from me if you're into such toxic pitiful cheap shitty mindset.

I've seen enough of ppl here and wp friends. Even those who were far million times better than the ones asking for bmf, even they too did dramas, betrayed me, ignored or went away eventually. Anything is fake if it's just for a season. If not forever, it's all fake it's all fake. Be it love or friendship or any relation. I've already had to deal with a lot of pain due to betrayals, heartbreaks, dramas, family issues, mental damage, health and what not etc etc so pls don't worsen it more with something so cheap as bmf. Sorry if it hurts, but yeah ppl who can't handle any relations hurt far more than rejecting a bmf.

And the cheapest mindset of such ppl is when u say you've trust issues, and they reply with "Not everyone is like that, I'll not judge u"

But just the next week, i bet they'll judge u really hard XD

Imma not gonna accept bmf or consider anyone as friends anymore unless they give me every bit of what i need to believe or feel comfortable to trust someone again. If they don't have time for efforts or anything, they may ignore me fine. I'm here to talk with anyone who needs me, but i can't accept bmf so quickly when they just disappear or have no time to know me or be with me! For understanding one needs to know about a person, and these ppl usually never care to know much even if my whole acc is full of hundreds of poems, rants and quotes all about my feelings hardly anyone had ever read all of em ever. And ppl who don't willingly try to know me from my little things (without me having to Tell em that i posted/updated something everytime) , my works and posts, when they could, I'd better say bye to em if they ask for bmf. I've no interest in dealing with such bitches. I've already been hurt a lot by ppl who said bmf once just to hurt me again later. Ppl who don't have care/love towards animals, plants, or have no time to spread awareness in issues when i ask ppl in some of my updates to, they're as well in the list of ppl whom i can't consider as a friend if they're being selfish asses everyone has a life ik, but self - obsessed mfs are the last thing I'd like to trust ever xp no friendship can occur without doing anything. I'm fine alone, but just don't come to hurt me more if u are not capable of the relation.

I don't like considering someone as a friend, who neither supports my works, nor understand me well without triggering, who neither are able to cheer, be free for me or comfort me at my bad days, nor able to make me feel like i didn't regret trusting. And i don't think anyone gonna give me enough reason to build my trust in them. I'm not interested to be more hurt rn. Pls, Understand this first !!

And then I'm really too tired and exhaused of trusting ppl no matter what, especially in wp, over time they all except me get some irl bestie and they go hangout with em often and get busy in calls and everything and eventually like this being more close to em, they leave me as I'm just an online friend. Many of the times i wish to have some actual friend irl who could actually be there for me, but i don't, i wish i could call or meet my online friends but even that's not possible and I'm too tired of feeling like unlucky, treated unfair and unequally by everyone as they all make me feel like I'm a second choice to em no matter how much good things they say, but they all prove they're just another faker as always.

Feeling like an option to someone is one of the worst things. I've felt from everyone since childhood till now. No one can actually prioritize me ever no matter how much u do for em. Everyone has too many ppl in their lives and I've almost no one so it gets easy for em moving on throwing me away one day, not easy for me to go thru the pain again and again.

When ppl say bmf, it certainly brings back things and hurt me a lot i feel more insecure, especially when it's said by someone who was unable to be there at my need nor had time for my works and rants haha XD

Then there are those who hurted u or so just a while ago, and after that they expect u to answer a bmf. That's absurd many ppl have done this. Like some quarell happened coz they hurted me with some rude words or judgement, and they just say a *apology-less* sorry  and say bmf- like wut- bitch- u gotta first earn trust, make someone feel like trusting u before u become friends. You can surely talk with me as much as u want, but friendship isn't something I'll do just coz we talked for a few days. As i said above there are many more things in the bond most ppl don't understand and I'd expect em to better stay away from me if they can't.

And also, it's such a regret for me that i wrote some msgs and things for some ppl in some of my parts most of em never came to even see it XD some of those "friends" uwu guess I've no time to remove the msgs even xd but at least I'll never say anything about my feelings or appreciation for such ppl if they never tried to even enter my book to see what all is here lmao. Thanks for a few ppl who did had time to check out or add it to library uwu.

AND I CRINGE on a few silent readers who want bmf but they have no space for appreciation for ur any work or thing XD i mean some ppl may not like stories and hackbooks, tags etc etc. The stories not even always related to one's life. But it's weird how some ppl read ur poetry, rants about what u feel etc etc, even questions for ppl for engaging em in fun interactions but they don't comment anything.

Yk what, if someone really loves or cares for u, they won't be ashamed to show love to u outside a private space or dm. I mean like I've known such ppl in past who used to act like they love or crush on me, but didn't wanted to comment or say anything about in my posts or writeups just coz they wanna stay all private lol. I think overloading privacy is a big enemy of all genuine bonds. Not only reduces trust, but leads to misunderstanding too in time. As they be like their bonds and everything exists only inside a dm lmao.

A quote: Choose someone for ur life who chooses you before all, even in a crowd of celebrities and amazing people.