Euphoria x Melancholy

Guess what?

You're happy and I'm too
But the difference is not new
I'm crying within hiding the clue

Guess what there's been a million things on my mind, you don't know to see what's the secret behind. I sound so fun and dirty, but don't u know why i became so flirty. Lack of feeling love and attention, always being ignored and thrown away to darkness' detention. I wanna talk to someone, walk with someone, but no one's here no one's around. Lack of affection flows in my blood, with small compliment, i fly like a bird. I love seeing all happy with my talks, I'm not doing anything for my own desperation. I like mending heart with all my affection, i love to stare you and fill with love, a bit of flattery makes you a dove. I feel happy when you all feel so, guess a compliment changes mood well, turns from so sad to happy also.

Guess what you're laughing on my jokes
You're having fun talking to me,
But within me there's a darkness, my pain in chest still hurting me, it's sucking in life away from me, it's starting to engulf the joy in me,
but i act so cool so happy, knowing I'll be boring if i sound gloomy and like always no one would care about me
I would be left away in a mess, coz i can no more survive this alone, i really wanna feel like someone's wiping my tears when i smile, but if i will ever have it real, guess it's still a mystery.

I see every flaw every scar behind them,
Guess what i love everything about you
Except the fact you can't see my soul within me.

(It's just a release. I'm keeping my raw emotions without any grammar checks, ik it's not that poetic but just wanted to release. Sorry if it's much bad)