Hyacinth || dreamwastaken

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It's time.

It's here.

The day has come for the escape. All the boys need is me. Once again, another point in life where I'm surrounded by nothing but people different than I. First it was robots, now it's males. It's a never ending cycle of struggle.

All I have to do is exist and everyone can escape freely. Enough to get us deep into the forest before guards even arrive from the alert. Anything touches the top of the fence and guards flock to the land. We'd have more time with me, but not much.

"Clay," I reach out and lace my fingers between his, "if something's happens just go okay?" My eyes go doey as I stare at him.

"Hya..." Clay warns.

"I will be okay. Just go, I know where you've scouted now. I'll find my way."

Clay tugs at my arm which causes me to stumble into him. "I didn't even let you stay in the commune that we were supposed to be in. What makes you think I'd let you stay in one we aren't even supposed to be near?" Clay's hand reaches up and caresses my cheek. I feed into his touch because it feels good to feel appreciated, cared for.

"You ready to run?" I shake my head 'no' in his hands. A pout falls to his lips because he knows the exact reason why. I spent what felt like months running. I didn't know if my body could do it again.

I glance down slowly at my wrist and stare at the little red number that says 23:47. Less than a day. We had less than a day until my timer, Clay's timer, hit zero. We were about to be marked together forever. Then again, after breaking out. Numbers didn't matter.

But in my heart I knew that I loved him. I craved every single bit of him. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Even when I hated him most, I could still picture the rest of my life with him by my side. Even locked up in the commune, I could always rely on him. No matter the day. No matter the time. Clay was always my shadow.

"We have food set for us along the way. You will never be hungry again. Hyacinth," my full name rolling off his tongue sounds more beautiful every time he lets it happen, "I love you. We can do this together."

"Come on George, let's go." Nick's voice fills my ears as it booms across the open field between us and them. Of course, I can't even take a second to let his words settle in me. The first time he's said it is tainted. But what's new, our lives are tainted. We are the broken ones.

"They're ready." I say softly as I squeeze Clay's hand in mine. His face drops and his only response is to nod his head.

I know right away that he's disappointed I haven't told him I love him back. I do love him. Of course I love him. But... now is not the time. I have a moment so picture perfect in my head. A moment I've dreamt about my entire life of how I want to feel. I mean I've said I love you to him and told him that I love him. But to share it just for the first time after being soulmates. The I love you, I love you too moment. I need to cherish that. I need to have it untainted by others.

"Chin up Dream. Can't have you breaking my heart now. We have our friends to rescue." I lean over and plant a soft kiss to the skin of his cheek. A smile barely forms on his lips. But I'll take it for now. It's all he is willing to give, it will have to do.

I walk out into the dark field with Clay on my heels as our crew of five gathers on their side of the fence. I can feel sweat forming between Clay and my palms. But I'm not sure who's the nervous one out of the two of us. Or if it's the both of us even.

"Why do you look so sad?" George speaks as his eyes latch to Clay. "Dream, it's a good day." George's smile shines. Normally an action that would pull Clay out of a funk fails. He's gloomy. He's stuck with a gray cloud looming over his head. A good moment is made sad because... he is sad. He's afraid of all I am afraid of. But the decision has been made. This is happening. There is no turning back.