Afraid of Falling in Love

Chapter 13

My gaze met Damian's. Hindi 'yun natanggal hanggang sa makalapit siya sa akin para sa huling sayaw. I was even shocked that Mommy was the one who picked Damian to be my last dance. Wala kasi siyang nabanggit na kulang pala ang 18 roses ko. Alam ko lang ay invited siya.

Damian handed me a bouquet of white roses. A bouquet! Hindi ko lubos akalain na ito ang ibibigay niya. Masyado ng mabigat ang kamay ko dahil sa mga binigay na rose. But I don't mind! Tinanggap ko 'yun

"Ang ganda mo." bulong nang makalapit siya sa akin.

I was taken off guard. I got a little red in the face. Then he moves closer. Damian took my hand as he slid his hand to grab my waist. If it were anyone else I would drop my gaze, but with him I'm drawn in closer, always wanting more. Kanina wala akong nararamdamang kaba. Ngayon ay namamawis ako dahil sa kaba. Specially with Damian.

"Bolero ka rin no?" I nervously joke. Pinatong ko ang kamay sa kanyang balikat. Nanatili namang nasa kabila ang bouquet. Hindi iniintindi ang bigat at pangangalay.

From spot lights sprung the sparks, we started dancing. Nanatili ang titig ko sa kanyang mata. His eyes are so different in moments like these, more soft than I knew eyes could be. The lights illuminated his face. Ang gwapo. In his all black suit. I'm speechless.

Ngumiti ako sa kanya. May dumaan na kung ano sa kanyang mata at hindi 'yun nagtagal.

"You're always beautiful, Eunice. Hindi ako nagbibiro." sabay ngisi niya.

I bit my lips to hide my amusement.

"Crush mo na siguro ako." biro ko.

"Sino bang hindi magkakagusto sa'yo?"

Kinakabahan akong natawa. Did he not deny it or hindi niya pinansin ang sinabi ko?

"My god, you think someone will like me? No one, Damian so stop joking,"

The next song played. I know the song and I don't think it suited us, the last dance. Hindi siguro si Mommy ang pumili ng kanta, and it's definitely by the crew because last dance is meant to be for the escort or her special someone dance.

Last dance... It was romantic.

"Pero sa tingin mo may magkakagusto talaga sa akin? I have a lot of issues with my parents. I'm not a good friend. Hindi ko pa naranasan ang magmahal. Eventually, my partner will get tired of me."

"If he does, then he's not worth of your love, Eunice. Don't think about falling in love with a bastard. Mas maganda kung hindi siguro..."

I shook my head, smiling. Nanonood ang mga bisita. The lights were focus on us. I don't know if ako lang. Hindi tulad sa mga naunang sayaw ko na medyo maliwanag. Lumingon naman ako sa mga kaibigan kong tuwang-tuwa. Keira was holding her phone, probably talking a video of us. Katabi niya si Hector na may panlokong ngisi.

"Not now, I'm not ready to see you embraced by someone" hindi ako sigurado sa tono niyang 'yon. Nanlambot ako.

"Why? Is it bad? You had girlfriend. Probably one day magugulat nalang ako na may nililigawan ka."

That hurt. Sobra. Totoo may takot ako. 'Yun ay ang mapunta siya sa iba habang kaunti lang ang oras na nakalaan para sa amin. I don't think I will have a boyfriend.

"I'm not looking for a relationship for now." Pinagmasdan niya ako. Nanliit ako sa mata niya. "Are you thinking of having a boyfriend that you are already legal?"

Umirap ako at natawa. "It's not a bad idea. Para may experience ako. I don't want to be like you."

"No. You will not." malamig ang titig niya sa akin. Gusto kong tumawa dahil ito na naman ang seryoso niyang mukha, "No boys. Bawal. I'll punch anyone who try to make move on you."