[𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓜𝓮] Book 1

Crush; 2:12

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~Nicholas~

I was walking home, my hands in my pockets. My face was so fucking warm while I was hugging Copper. I don't know why though! I looked down at my feet and I stopped walking. I placed my hands on my face and groaned. 

"What is happening to me!?" 

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I got home, and as I was taking my shoes off mum yelled to me. 

"Nicky!? Did you have a good day?" I looked down, and thought for a moment. "Yep" I said, as I walked up the stairs to my room. 

"You okay..?" Mum asked me, and I said. "Yep. Fine" I continued to walk up the stairs, and I walked into my room. 

I went onto my bed, and I was so confused.. I kind of felt miserable. I had an idea. I grabbed my laptop, a change of p.j's, and my bean bag. I placed my bean bag in the corner of my room. Changed into my clothing, and opened my laptop. 

I opened Google.. and stared at it. I didn't know what to look up.. I clench my hands tightly, then I typed in. 

'Am I gay?' I pressed enter, and a bunch of things came up. A bunch of quiz's, tests, and articles.

I deleted what I looked up, then re-typed in. 'how to tell if you're gay'   

I found a bunch of articles, and I read them. I cuddles up in the bean bag, then I sat up right- it was hard to get comfortable. 

I sighed, after hours of reading. I grabbed my phone, and looked at my photo gallery. The first photo was Copper holding his violin and his bow. I went back to my laptop, and looked up. 

'I like girls but now I like a boy???? '  I hovered my finger over the enter button. And then very quickly closed my laptop. I covered my head with my blanket, and cuddled up. I started crying, I wiped my eyes and whispered. 

"Help me.." 

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~April~
[2 Weeks Later]

I was sitting on a bunch, and I ran my fingers through my hair. I sighed.

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Fin <33