[𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓜𝓮] Book 1

Out; 4:12

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|Copper|

I walked out of the house, Nicholas followed after me and he said. "I'm so sorry, I'll text you in a bit, okay?" I nodded, and weakly smiled at him. David and Mrs. Nelson's yelling was heard in the background. 

"Yeah! Yeah, it's totally fine" I smiled at him. He sadly smiled at me, then closed the door. I looked down at their doormat, then started to walk home.

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I was texting Nicholas, 'Why is being out so fucking complicating, Nicholas? ' I sighed, and continued to message him.

'In books and films there's just one big coming out scene and everything's fine.. haha. Real like isn't fucking like that I suppose ' I snuggled up in my blanket, and hugged my pillow, pretending it was Nicholas.

'Are you awake? ' I sent, then turned to my side. I sighed, "Guess not" I whispered, and turned off my phone. 

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|Nicholas|

David and I were still arguing about Copper. "Just-- Fuck off and leave me alone!" I yelled, David laughed and said. "No need to have a tantrum--" Mum interrupted us, "Boys! No more shouting! You already made poor Copper leave!" 

I slammed my bedroom door, and dried my hair, since I just got out of the shower. I dried my chest off, and I heard buzzing coming from my bed. I back-flopped onto my bed, and grabbed my phone.

My eyes went wide when I realized how many messaged from Copper I had missed. I quickly sat up, and sent him. 

'SHIT sorry i meant to message you! My brother's being a dick, he literally won't stop pestering me. ' He sent me a sad face emoji, I sadly sighed, and played with Nellies ears.

I continued to message him. 

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Darling <33

'It was my fault for not telling him sooner ' 

'No! You shouldn't have to tell him if you don't want to '

'I guess he would have found out eventually one way or another. I should probably call my dad soon and tell him too '

'You don't have to! You can take your time! '

'I want him to know about you!! Plus I want to be the one to tell him, not David '

'😔😔😔 '

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|Copper|

I was staring at my phone, and tears start to fall from my eyes. 

'I'm so sorry, this is all my fault. You shouldn't feel rushed or pressured by anybody ' 

'Copper, this is NOT your fault!!!!! '

'Coming out is hard and complicated, right? '

'And it doesn't all happen at once! And it doesn't always go right! Sometimes it probably doesn't even happen at all!! Coming out to my mum was amazing but I never expected it to go super well with everyone! And it's not YOUR fault! I just want people to know who I AM and know that you're my boyfriend and I know that not everyone will like it but I'm ready for that. We're probably gonna have to come out hundreds of more times in our lives!! ' 

'It might be shitty sometimes but I promise it will be okay. And it's all worth it, because we're in this together '

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I sat up in my bed, and weakly smiled. I wiped my tears, and typed in 'I love you' I placed my thumb above the enter button. I pushed my eyebrows together, and I grunted loudly. My face went super red, and I ran my fingers through my black hair. 

I quickly deleted it, and sent--

'I wish we could just nap, snuggle, and watch movies all the time and nobody would bother us '

--Instead of the 'I love you' message. 

'That's the dream ☺💕 ' I laughed, and hugged my pillow. I happily sighed, and snuggled. 

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Fin <33