[𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓜𝓮] Book 1

Love; 5:25

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tw; talk of ed's

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Nicholas Nelson's POV

I was unwrapping the poorly wrapped gift from Copper, and the cover was all pink and read 'Memories' a photo album. My eyes went wide, and I smiled warmly. Running my fingers on the pages gently, before opening it.

There was one photo inside, of us kissing in the water. With a note on the bottom. 'you gave me a photo of us in the snow, here's one of us in the sun' I smiled brightly, looking up at Copper. 

"I know it's so cheesy!" He laughed, running his fingers through his hair and tapping his wrists together gently. "But the rest of the album is empty so you can--" I interrupted him by pulling him into a tight hug.

"Oh!" He laughed out, and I pushed him down- entrapping him in a tight hug. "You like it then?" Copper asked, and I rolled my eyes before kissing his lips. Holding onto my jumper that fell on his body like a dress.

The smell of myself mixed with his was perfect, I smiled against the kiss before backing my head up. "I love you" I whispered, and looked into his perfect blue eyes. "I love you more.."

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still nicholas

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Copper was sleeping next to me, hugging my arm gently. I stared at him, before rubbing my thumb against his cheek. He quietly moaned in his sleep, and pushed his lips together.

"H-Huh.." He rubbed his eyes, and I sadly smiled. "Darling.. you said you'd wake up at eight." He tightened his grip against my arm, and I blissfully sighed at the sight of him. 

"What.. it's.. eight already?" He pushed himself up, letting go of my arm; which made me sad. "Ugh, I don't want to go home." I stood up, before I thought of bringing up his eating disorder again. 

I grabbed onto Copper's wrist, and he turned to me. "Copper- wait a sec" He tilted his head to the side, and looked down at me. "Yeah?" He sat back down on my bed, and I bit my bottom lip. 

"Uhm..." I whispered, "You know I love you" I added, and he tilted his head to the other side, obviously confused. "Yeah! Of course, I love you too" I took in a deep breath, "I.. well" 

"I'm really glad we're talked about.. you know, your mental health stuff. But, I'm still... really worried about you" Copper's eyes went wide, and straightened his head up. "Not just about the eating thing!" I quickly added, and shook my head; clinging onto his hand tightly.

"I..I've noticed you've been stressed and really tired" Copper bit his bottom lip, obviously holding in tears. "Some days.. you just seem really sad"

A single tear rolled down his face, and I was panicking. "And sometimes I say things that just make things way worse! I say the wrong thing, or-or I didn't know what to do!" I looked up at him, and his hand loosened on mine.

"I can't fix this! I really want you to talk to your parents.. or-or a doctor.. or something you feel comfortable with" Copper slowly pulled his hand out of mine, and my heart dropped. More tears fell down his face.

"I.... can't....." He sobbed out, and placed his hands on his eyes. I flinched back, and his entire body was shaking like a leaf. I pulled him into a super tight hug, and placed my hand to the back of his neck.

"I know it's hard, but-- I'm so worried about you darling. And I-I can't make you feel better" His shaky sobs were breathing my heart, and I can't help him. I hate that I can't help him. "I just don't see how I could.. ever be... better"

Copper sobbed out, and I shook my head as he clung into my top. "You can! I promise you can, you just have to ask for help" I clung onto his head, and his shaking hurt me. All I want to do, is help.

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fin </3

I feel for this boy sm, Nicholas I feel you (sob)

(It feels so weird to be writing out Nicholas, it's my ex's name 😭😭)