A Fresh Start

XXI

AN: well I didn't know people were still reading this but it just randomly started getting votes so thank you here's a chapter!! I had it in my drafts... I stopped writing cause I don't really know what I wanna do with this story anymore. ideas are welcomed because I probably won't write much more to this story at least no time soon :(

Atalias POV

I'm glad Onyx was free earlier than expected today. I planned on taking her to my house again today. I want her to slip more around me and I think she just needs to be more comfortable with me. The last time she was here we had sex and that's not the only side of me I want her to see. I want her to know I can also be nurturing and caring. So I stopped and got her flowers and a new stuffy on the way to pick her up. I know she says she doesn't like me spoiling her but the way her eyes lit up before she glared at me with her little pout melts me every time.

Pulling up outside the school I see Onyx where she normally sits just as spaced out as usual.

"C'mon sweetheart it's kinda warm out there," I said softly but loud enough for her to hear me.

Her head popped up and she ran to the car waving at me through the window before she got in.

"Afternoon doll I got you a little something," I said motioning to the backseat.

"Mommy why? thank you but why?" she pecked my cheek but pouted at me.

"Because I felt like it," I said smiling at her

I hope I haven't truly been spoiling her too much. I don't want her to feel bought but she deserves to be spoiled.

"You're starting to feel like a suga momma," she said side-eyeing me while smelling her flowers.

"Only for you sugar" I wink and pull into McDonald's "Hungry?"

"No ma'am," she says playing with her new toy.

"Okay doll mommy's gonna get a coffee do you want anything?" I ask in case maybe she just doesn't want food.

"Can I have apple juice and slices?" she says shyly

"Of course, you can"

I ordered for us and then we were back on the road to my house. When she realized where we were going she was a bit confused but composed herself quickly so I figured it was okay. When we arrived I let her out and handed her my keys. I asked her to unlock the door for me and get a sippy ready for her juice. I gathered all our stuff and locked the car before making my way inside. when I walked into the kitchen she was staring at the cabinets pouting. I couldn't help but chuckle. She's so short.

"Sorry doll mommy's got it, sippy or baba?" I asked.

"Baba," she said after a long pause.

"Coming right up. Wanna watch tv in the living room or cuddle in mommy's bed?" I asked softly.

I think it's nap time.

"Mamas bed" she mumbled

"Okay baby," I said handing her her baba and getting everything that needs to come with us.

I'm glad she's feeling little. My sleepy girl.

When we got upstairs she immediately stripped and ran into my closet. I giggled yes, I giggled at her. She's so cute. When she came out she had on one of my hoodies and a pair of fuzzy socks that are hers. I changed her into a pull-up before I laid down and patted the spot beside me. She snuggles into my side and then closed her eyes sighing. My baby must be really tired. After a couple of minutes, she opened her eyes and stared up at me. I knew in a heartbeat she was little. I could see in her eyes how small she really felt.

"Oh is my baby here?" I ask rubbing her back and reaching behind her to grab her bottle.

"Mama," she said burying her face in my stomach.

"Yes, baby I'm mama. Would you like this?" I ask offering her a bottle with apple juice in it.

She took it and started drinking it while she was laying there staring at me the whole time as if I might just disappear. Her hand that wasn't holding her bottle gripped my shirt harshly and her eyes were barely open at this point but she was keeping her eyes on me so I made sure not to look away. If this is what she needed right now, calm and connection. I would love to give it to her over and over again to see that kind of peace in her eyes.

She fell asleep shortly after she finished her juice. I was going to nap with her but I needed to clean some stuff around the house. So after cuddling my baby for a few more minutes I got up and headed to the kitchen. I cleaned up my kitchen, and dining room, and straightened up everywhere else.

When I'm working and going to school a lot in the same week my house always gets kind of messy. Especially if I don't clean it over the weekend. I sat down at the dining room table and started my homework. After I finished I figured she had napped long enough.

"Wake up angel... cmon princess it's time to get up... up up up cmon wake-up baby," I said softly patting her butt.

Her eyes fluttered but she kept them shut. I knew she was awake now but simply ignoring my request. I smiled to myself and then tickled her sides and back softly. She squeaked and turned her head quickly to hide her giggling. That made me laugh, I picked her up and pulled her close to me still tickling her sides but just barely. She laughed and squirmed in my arms so much that if I wasn't so strong I might have dropped her.

"Otay otay I'm up stop momma," she said holding her arms out against me.

"Okay if you're up then I guess I can stop" I pecked her cheek and sat her down.

The second her feet touched the ground she ran to the kitchen and got cherries out of the fridge.

"1 how'd you know those were in there, 2 no running inside," I said glancing at her and continuing into the dining room to clean up my school stuff.

"It's a fridgerator it's apost to be fruits in it," she said in the cutest little baby voice muffled by cherries.

"Oh okay well I'll keep that in mind every time I go to the grocery store. It's not a fridge unless it has fruit in it." I smiled at her

"Correct... tv?" she asked me.

Always changing the subject but who am I to say no? I turned on SpongeBob in the living room and started making us something to eat. It wasn't dinnertime yet but I let her nap through lunchtime. I made us grilled peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and cut up some fruit with yogurt for Onyx and I had mine with plain chips.
I set the table and then yelled to Onyx that it was done. I didn't hear anything for a second then I heard fast footsteps that slowed the closer she got to me. I'm glad she remembered herself. No running.