A Fresh Start

XIV

Onyx's POV

  We walked in and she went straight to the kitchen and put the bags on the counter. I stood at the door for a minute just looking around and then slipped off my shoes and made my way next to her in the kitchen. She had grabbed two plates and filled hers with chicken, mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese, and broccoli. My plate just had fruit and yogurt to the side. She had got me strawberries, mango, blueberries, and dragon fruit. She grabbed both plates and two forks and walked to the table setting the plates next to each other and pulling out a chair and looking up at me.

"Come here honeybun," She said motioning me over with one hand.

I walked to the chair and sat down she pushed me in and sat next to me. I took a bite of my fruit keeping my eyes cast down to my plate. She followed soon after taking a bite and glancing at me every once in a while. She finished her food before I finished mine. When she took her last bite she put her hand on my thigh and turned towards me slightly.

"Why've you been so quiet since I came back out of the store? Not only that you've barely looked up from the ground. Are you okay baby? Do you wanna go home?" She asked sounding kinda bummed out at the end.

" No, no, no. I don't wanna go home and I'm okay. I don't know why I'm being quiet." I said still not looking up away from my plate.

"Honey, look at me." She says grabbing my chin and turning my face up towards hers.

I automatically blushed and dropped my eyes. I can't look her in the eye right now I'm trying so hard to stay big. Little me without a paci is a big crybaby and I don't wanna put her through that right now.

"Hey, I said look at me," She said tightening her grip on my chin.

I raised my eyes immediately.

"There we are. Now, do you care to tell me why my pretty baby is jus sitting here all silent like?" She asked looking straight into my soul.

" Um, i- I don't know" I stuttered trying to lower my head again but she wouldn't let me.

"Well, you see I think you do know so how about you finish your fruit and we go sit on the couch and talk about it. alright?" She said releasing her grip on my face.

Taking her dish to the sink and walking towards the living room next. I grabbed my fork and finished my fruits and yogurt as quickly as I could then took my plate to the sink. I walked into the living room and sat down next to her. She rolled her eyes and pulled me onto her lap reaching down to grab the other bags she got out the store setting them on the couch next to us. I didn't even realize she had brought them into the living room with her.

"So, what's the matter?" She asked looking at me.

"I wanna be little mama," I said quietly looking down and pouting.

"Awee my baby you can be little. it's just me and you no ones gonna stop you or do nothing to ya. you're always safe with mommy." Atalia said caressing my cheek.

I looked up at her and said "I don't have my paci mama I don't like being little without it I get anxious and restless"

"Here," She said handing me one of the bags she got from the store earlier.

I opened the bag and inside were three 2 packs of pacis all different colors, a purple and a yellow sippy, a green and a blue bottle, and two small soft plastic toys.

"Thank you, mama!!" I said reaching out and hugging her burying my face in her neck.

"You're welcome little one. I got something else for you too," She said hugging me back and then handing me the other bag.