A Fresh Start

V

"Okay damn FUCK"

  I swear I don't remember turning this alarm on. Why the fuck is it going off. I grabbed my phone and looked at the screen. Oh, so it's not an alarm. Solana bitch ass keeps calling. I guess I'll answer then.

Onyx:
"What in the flying fuck could you possibly want I'm sleepy?"

Solana:
"Damn B I'm sorry I was just calling to let you know I have some friends down in the basement if you wanna chill or avoid us"

Onyx:
"Alright didn't mean to snap but I'll stay in my room and you make sure they stay away. Love ya Lana"

  I love my sister but damn she's so social. I laid back down and looked at the ceiling.

I want to be little. I get up close and lock my door normally I won't but lala has company. Grab my little space stuff and turn on a movie. I change into a bodysuit with some shorts and grab my paci. While I'm watching my movie I hear my phone ding but I'm too into my movie. After the movie ends I get up and grab my favorite stuffie. It's a black cat and she's so pretty. I hop on to my bed and then check my phone. It's a message from my brother saying he has some friends over too. I laid in bed with my stuffie tucked under my arm and my paci between my lips while I color.

I was starting to get hungry and I wanted a snack but that meant I had to go downstairs. My parents and my siblings know I'm little. It's a long story but they're accepting. I would have easily just walked down there but I don't know if there are any of my siblings' friends there. I stand at my door chewing on my paci and tossing my kitty back and forth in my hands.

"Cmon O just open the door walk to the kitchen and right back," I said out loud to myself.

I opened my door and looked down the hall and as far as I could see downstairs. I didn't see anyone so I sat my paci down and walked out making sure to pull my door closed after me. I walked down the stairs and the living room was clear so I keep going. I walked into the kitchen and nobody else was in there so I started to gather my snacks. While I was getting my sippy cup to put juice in it someone walked in. I turned around and seen a tall pale skinned girl or maybe woman I should call her.

"Hey ma let me help you. You shouldn't be standing on the counter like that it's not safe." She lightly scolded while helping me down.

"Thank you but I would like you to know I'm a big girl and can get my cup myself," I said crossing my arms.

"Yeah, such a big girl. That's why you're wearing that and walking around with a stuffed animal and drinking out a sippy huh?" She grabbed a cup and looked at me.

"Yes that's exactly why now can I please have my cup lady," I said while holding out my hand.

"Oh, that's not polite. I have a name little girl. And you're supposed to say thank you." She said with a smirk on her ridiculously pretty face.

"Okay den lady what's your name and thank you for grabbing my cup," I said while holding my hand out for my cup

"Well little lady my name is Atalia and you can have your cup after I pour you some juice." She said grabbing the juice I set on the counter and opening it.

I just looked at her. I don't understand why she's being so difficult. All she had to do was hand me my cup. Now she's pouring juice into my cup. I don't even know her. Her name is pretty though and her face too. I wonder how old she is and if she thinks I'm pretty. She screws the lid on my cup, grabs my snacks and tells me to lead her to my room. I decided to just listen I'm not gonna turn down help. As we are walking upstairs we passed my brothers room and his door is open this time. She stops at his door says something to him then starts walking again. We get to my room I open the door and she follows me in. She sets my stuff down and looks around.

"Awee look at the big girls' room. Toys, children movies, and is that a binky?" She says teasingly.

"Oh well, and it might be. Why are you still in here?" I said rudely.

"That's not how you treat company darling." She says slyly.

"You're my brothers' company not mines and you were rude first," I said with attitude and small tears in my eyes.

I'm just hungry and she's being a meany butt. She looks at me and her face softened when she saw the tears. I sat on my bed and just looked down. She moved around for a second until she sat on my bed and pulled me towards her. I looked up to say something to her and she pushed my paci in my mouth.

"I'm sorry babygirl I didn't mean to upset you. I was just playing. I suck don't I?"

"Mmmm yuhh" I mumbled around my paci.

She giggled at me and wiped my tears. She then pulled at my paci. So I whined I didn't want her to take it. It's mines and mines only.

"I'm not taking it boo I promise. You need to eat something though."

"Otay I want my sandwich and juice," I told her.

She grabbed both things and started feeding me. I don't know why I'm letting her do this. I barely know her. But it's been so long since I've had a caregiver or mommy. Plus she's taking good care of me other than when she was teasing me but she apologized. I finished my juice and was getting sleepy. She slipped my paci in my mouth and slipped from out my bed. I whined when she got to the door. I was so warm and comfy while she was laying with me and now she's leaving.

"Aht aht boo don't cry I'll be right back I promise." She said then slid out my door.

I don't think she's coming back. I laid facing my door sucking my paci slowly drifting off to sleep. When I was almost sleeping my door opened and Atalia walked back in. She closed my door as softly as she could and then snuggled up to me. She must think I'm asleep because she said something I'm sure I wasn't supposed to hear.

"I gonna make you mine babygirl."