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Dear Raymundo, (Regret 2)

Dear Raymundo, 

It's now been a month since that dreaded incident which I am the reason of, took place. People are trying their best to console me, tell me that whatever happened wasn't my fault but what do they know? They don't know the hurtful words I said to you, they don't know how hurt you sounded when I said all of it, they don't know I'm the reason you were driving so recklessly in the first place, it was my company's truck that hit you in the first place.

If only I had not believed that random ass girl over you, none of this would have happened. If only I would've believed my Raymundo over her, you'd be with me, messing with me and not on a hospital bed, plugged to all of that machinery that is keeping you alive. 

A lot of people come to visit you every day. April's been a mess. Taco, Ramee, Jaylen, Vinny, Anto, Curtis and all of your other brothers try to put on a tough exterior but I know they're all also crumbling on the inside. We all miss you so much, Raymundo.

But I know, I know you won't leave us. I have faith in you. I mean you have so many things to do— a car to buy, an empire to build, shit to sell and people to annoy. People like me. You will annoy me like you used to when you wake up, right? You won't change, would you? 

I can only hope you won't. I can only hope you won't stop calling me Randymundo. I can only hope you'll still look for me in a crowd, only do crime when I'm there to save you, call me to save you even though a thousand more people might be equally capable to. What I hope most of all is that you won't forget me. It'd kill me if you were to forget me Raymundo. You know why? Because you're my mundo. You're my world. My everything. I love you so much Raymundo and I wish you were awake right now for me to say this to your face.

I wish you'd be awake, next to me, making fun of me for finally admitting my feelings that I ran from and hid for so long. You leaving me was what it took for me to realize them is the worst part about it all. But I know that you'll wake up soon. I know I'll be able to say the words to you soon.

Remember the time when I had Zay Di give you a black rose? And when you gave a red tulip in return? I wish I would've had enough guts to give you one on my own. Maybe that's why I bring you one everyday. I still can't believe none of us knew him and thought the other did. He definitely saw us at our peak insanity time, huh? I find it hilarious how much we probably scarred the poor guy for life.

I also find it hilarious how his song is what I find solace in, in this moment. If you hear it, you'd understand what I mean. The lyrics just fit so perfectly, like they were written for us. A song all for us, sounds fun, doesn't it? 

Maybe when you wake up you can finally publish a song. The one you and April were working on too. The one you were so excitedly writing lyrics for the other day.

You know, (no pun intended) I'd thought that Yuno would be mad at me for what I put you through but it was honestly quite the opposite. He was one of the people who helped me through the most. He's the only person I've opened up to my feelings for you, actually. He told me he sort of understood the pain I'm going through and I'm sure he does. But I can't understand his. I can't imagine how it must feel consoling the man who put your twin sister in a coma.

I really hope you wake up soon, Raymundo. Nothing's the same without you. I miss your erratic energy, our SBS, even the petty wars. I miss hanging out with you— busting banks, me teaching you how to race and stuff. A lot has changed in the city. A lot I can't wait for you to see. A lot I want to show you. The Bullet club is finally here too. I think you'd love it. It's right up your ally. I can't wait for you to wake up and grind that shit.

I even put a karambit as the prize for you. I know how much you like swords and stuff so I thought it would be a good touch. I saved a special red one just for you. You're gonna love it.

I honestly never know how to end these letters I write you everyday. There's just so much I want to talk to you about and so little that I can write. I just wish you'd wake up soon so I could tell you all about it and so much more. 

I love you Raymundo, please wake up soon, my love. I miss you. We all do.

Your Randymundo.

Tears drop down Ray's cheeks as she reads the last letter. She takes the black rose from a sleeping Randy's hand, clutching both the things to her heart as sobs break out of her.

Randy's eyes open and close lazily as he tries to rub the sleep out of them. He coughs softly from the dry throat before looking up. His breath gets held in his throat as all his sleepiness is thrown out the window. He looked at an awake Ray Mond with his eyes widened, blinking rapidly, not believing his eyes.

"R.. Ray?" His voice comes out soft and breaks at the end as tears fill his eyes. "I-" His gaze travels to the letter in her hands. Once he realizes his eyes aren't deceiving him, guilt and regret flood him again. "I'm so sorry, Ray... I'm so very sorry, I-"

"Shut the fuck up," He shuts his mouth at her command, not knowing what to do as tears fall down his cheeks constantly. A yelp leaves his mouth as he's pulled flush against her. Realizing what's happening, he wraps his hands around her frame tightly but loosens it a second later as to not hurt her.

"I missed you so much, Ray. So fucking much." He cries into her as she holds him tighter and closer. "Say it." She whispers to him softly. He knew what she meant and this time, he had the courage to say it.

"I love you." He says in a breathless tone. "I love you, Raymundo, I love you so fucking much," He sobs in her arms as she rubs his back, soothing him.

"I love you too, Randy but you fucked up." Randy's heat breaks at her words. He pulls back just slightly, not wanting to leave her embrace. 

"I'll do anything to make up for what I did, Ray. Anything." He assures her, hoping she's believe him.

"Will you buy me my Supra?" She bites her lip softly, giving him a teasing look making him chuckle.

"I'll buy you a thousand of those," He replied, hugging her again, this time, tightly.

"One is enough," She giggles, matching his intensity.

"Only if you promise to never leave me again," He looks at her with a broken expression. "I'll promise that if you promise to not do what you did again."

"I'll never even think about it. Never in a million years." He assures her, looking at her with hopeful eyes.

"Then I promise to never leave you again too. Who'd want to lie in a bed for a month straight again, anyways," They both chuckle at her words.

"I love you Raymundo."

"I love you too Randymundo."