Hyunjins eyes were just a big void, free from any emotions. He looked, seemed and was actually numb, yet anger and sadness were still filling up his heart on the inside.
He grabbed Chans shirt by his collar, abruptly pushing him against the wall, watching him scrunch his eyes and whine out in pain as he had hurt him a little.
"You went back go him?! Are you serious?!" He started yelling, yelling so loud everyone else in the hallway could hear it if they just walked by the room.
"I understand if you don't want me, fine I understand that you don't even want to talk to me, but you know what I don't understand? Why you're such a Liar, Chan?!"
The older was trembling, shaking and in pain as Hyunjin kept pushing him against the wall and hurting his back and head. He was scared, tearing up and starting to cry as everything was overwhelming him. Hyunjin kept yelling at him, using such hurtful words, addressing him as someone he never wanted to be.
"You said people were just spreading rumors about you! You said they were just coming up with the fact that you were a playboy, that it wasn't true. Do you know what hurts the most?! The fact that you gave me such high hopes of being with you, but crushed them just a few hours later!"
"S-stop H-hyunjin, p-please...!" Chan somehow managed to speak up, looking down and away from the other as tears of fear and guilt rushed down his tired and exhausted face.
"Oh you want me to stop!? How about you make the pain you've caused me stop first huh?! You're a Liar Chan! Your words are meaningless and fake! First you lead me on, then you go around making out with random idiots and now you've gone back to your ex?! The one that broke you into so many pieces?! That's the type of person you prefer over me?!"
"H-hyunjin..."
"Yeah that's right, all you can do now is cry?! If you'd have the stupid courage to look at me, you'd see the way my eyes have cried for so many nights straight! I cried over you, I cried thinking I hadn't been good enough. I thought I had done something wrong. Gosh..."
Hyunjins voice slowly but surely started getting quieter and quieter while he teared up himself, a few tears traveling down his own face as he ran his fingertips along the boys neck where all of his marks used to be.
"...I- I wish I had never even gotten to know you. I wish I had never believed you'd like me back, that you'd get as attached to me as I got to you. I wish I had never seen that fragile side of you that made me fall for you in an instant.. I wish.. I had I had never even gotten to touch your body or.." He reached his hand up to the smallers lips, ghosting his thumb over his bottom lip as more tears escaped "...or even kissed those pretty lips.."
Both boys were hurting tremendously and believe it or not, Chan was probably the one hurting the most. Listening to Hyunjin confessing and crying broke his already crushed heart even more.
He hated the fact that he couldn't explain, that all he could do right now was push the younger as far away as possible.
The way even now, his hand on his face was providing him with warmth and tingles just made it hurt even more, he didn't know how he should respond, what he was supposed to say.
"Just tell me, are you guys for real back together? In an actual relationship..?" Hyunjin didn't even want to know. He didn't know the answer, yet something inside of him told him he wasn't going to like it anyway.
"...Y-yes.."
Chan watched as a wave of completely silent tears rushed down the others face. He couldn't handle this, he couldn't do this anymore. All he wanted was to let Hyunjin know, but he couldn't and it just made him cry himself.
He reached his hand forward to the boys cheek, attempting to wipe away some of his tears, but Hyunjin immediately grabbed his wrist before he could reach him and pulled his arm down and away from his face.
"Please, don't touch me. Don't come close to me. You have a boyfriend now, remember? I hope he has changed and makes you happier than I could've ever made you. I hope he reassures you, is patient with you and doesn't pressure you. I hope he makes you feel the same way and even better than I did, physically and mentally."
Hyunjins tears were slowly stopping again and his emotionless, dead expression was coming back the more he let go of the older. He took a few steps back, Chan staying glued to the wall as he just tried not to lose his balance and fall to the ground. The boy turned his back to him, about to walk outside but wiping the tear stains away from his cheeks first.
"Just so you know, I had fallen really hard for you, Chan. Ever since I first saw that picture of you, and especially when we first kissed, I felt like I was on cloud nine. I felt like this could develop into something so special, into something long lasting, but I was wrong. I hope all of these people and especially him, have kissed you better than me. I hope you've enjoyed their presence more than mine."
"J-jinnie n-no..." Chan tried walking up to him, wanting to grab his arm, but getting stopped as soon as he moved.
"I already told you, don't come close to me and don't call me that way. Stop with the lies. Do yourself and me a favor and never talk to me again. Pretend that what had happened between you and I was just a dream. I don't know you and you don't know me. Bye, Chan."
Hyunjin left.
He walked out of the room and left the older behind. Alone, broken, just the way he was feeling himself.
If only he knew the whole story.
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