Disclaimer: This is the unedited version of my journal. In order to give you my authentic emotion I decided not to edit till it's done. Thanks for reading.
lOffensive Gestures...
Though many will not mean any harm, satan is lurking with a bag full of opportunities to be offended. For me it showed up the week of the funeral when someone reminded me that I was a young beautiful girl, they didn't mean no harm, but I was offended. They didn't realize that to think on another man felt and feels like cheating on a man I would've never cheated on, leaving me offended. Though my husband had a incurable disease, I was not waiting on him to pass. I wanted him to live.
Or the times people would compare the death of my husband to something that doesn't even compare. I'm telling you they mean no harm. If they have never experienced this... they have no clue what your going through. So please guard you heart. Because I didn't take good notes with my mom I was unaware of some of the tricks the he would use. Though I could go on I want. My deepest desire is to stay in forgiveness. I want to see Jay again, so holiness for me is MANDATORY!
When I realized that I was mad I had to do differently. I was unaware that my heart was filling with bitterness, wrath, and rage. Offenses, hurt and pain was causing me to become A angry widow. This prompted me to pray "I prayed hard for JESUS to heal my heart."
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Diary of an angry widow
Non-FictionWhy me? Why my husband? What did I do wrong? Get ready for a up, close and personal look at widowhood. A real raw experience of widowhood after 19 years of marital bliss. Grab a box of tissue, a notepad for thoughts, and share with a friend as I ca...
