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Obstruction of Familial Love

Daunting is your misunderstanding,
for your words scare me every time I ask for safety.
My words are aggravating,
but I don't how else to comb my words
to straighten your hair.

I doubt myself,
my entire thinking and
I feel no longer human,
just dust particles under bedroom carpets.
My fear ferments my body until no one wants
to drink my vinegar-self anymore.

I attempt to unload my fear,
but I'm reminded
how unsafe the world has become,
and I see it seep into the walls of our own home-
no longer am I a treasured soul in this house,
and in this city-
I'm a lone wolf.

No one to trust though I beg for it,
No one for support,
No memory of a time when I felt safe
in this material world.
My body yearns for freedom,
my soul longs for comfort and
all I know,
is that I give into risk
as my only option.

The universe throws me to the wolves
until I can heal, and God is somewhere watching me
like an eagle, but when will He take me
as His prey up to heaven?

I'm begging for some rest and I haven't even started
learning yet...

I try to make sense of it all,
but I'm starving for home.
I looked for it in strangers.
I'm starving for peace
but I cannot let go.
I try to surrender,
but I am brought back to shore.

Forecast: 16% Chance of Rain