My One and Only: Endeavor x Black Reader

Chapter Twenty-Two: Thanks For Nothing

Hiiiiiiii! How are you? Hope all is well. Happy reading!☺️
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"Every day and every night
I stay by the phone
Never go no place so just in case
You call I'll be home" ~ Mariah Carey

I've been locked in my room for days. I can't eat or sleep. It's been raining for days as well, befitting my mood. I'm pretty sure I caused it. I sigh as I roll over to grab my phone. I go into my contacts. I hover over the dial button. I press call. Voicemail per usual.

"Hey...it's me again." I sniff.

"I know I've been calling you all the time. I'm sorry. I don't even care about all of that. You were right. It's not a big deal. I'm sorry for making you feel like...like a terrible father. You've been an amazing father to our children. You've been there for every milestone in their life. You've always put them first." The voicemail ends. I press save. I hang up and call again.

"Hey it's me again. You deserve to live your life. I was stupid for making you feel like you can't all because of my selfish feelings. I don't want to fight with you anymore. Please call me back. I want to work this out with you. I don't like when we fight. I truly hope you're okay. Remember to take care of yourself and your mental health. It's important that you do." I save, hang up and call again.

"You're my best friend. I love and care about you. I want you happy. I want to see you happy with Rei. I support you two. You're made for each other." I burst into cares.

"I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry f-for being selfish and stupid. I understand why you h-hate me. I hate myself too. I wish I could undo what I've said. Please Enji...ju-just come home." I beg. The voicemail ends. I save and hang up. I bury my face into my pillow and cry uncontrollably.

"Y/N? Y/N!" I feel as my body being shaken. I jump awake. I look around. I meet Enji's gaze. He wipes my tears and pull me close. I cry in his arms. He squeeze me tightly and rub my back.

"It's just a dream Y/N." He coos. I sniff and shove him away. I wipe my tears.

"W-Where am I? Where are my babies?!" I scream.

"Baby calm down. We're in Florida. At Disney World. And the twins are adjacent." I leap out of bed and fly into their room. They were sound asleep. I smile.

"Took me a while but they were able to eat, bathe and sleep." Enji says behind me.

"I slept the whole flight?" I turn to Enji. He nods.

"And the ride here. You fell back to sleep a lot." I groan.

"Must be still sleep deprived." I yawn.

"And jet lag." Enji takes my hand and I close their door gently. He leads me to the bed.

"Tell me what's wrong. Why were you crying in your sleep?"

"I'm still doing that?"

"What do you mean still doing that?"

"It's you. When I called you all the time, I cried myself to sleep. Every day and every night I stayed by the phone. I never went anywhere in case you called I'd be right at home so you could come over." I confess.

"Oh Y/N." Enji reaches out to me and I jump out of bed.

"Enji please. I know how to deal with it. I just need to lay down until I go back to sleep."

"Y/N I want to be there for you. I want to hold you until you fall asleep." I shake my head no.

"Where's the other room?" I ask.

"The twins have the other room."

"Fine I'll just sleep with them."

"You don't have to-"

"Enji..." I inhale and exhale deeply.

"This is how I cope. And I've been doing it for the past year." I walk to the adjacent door and open it. I close the door behind me. I walk to the bed. Each twin was on the edge. I lift them up and placed them in the center. I get in on the left side and pull them close to me.

"Mommy?" Vikhyati woken up.

"Yes baby?" I ask.

"Daddy said we're here so he can marry you."

"He said what?"

"Are you?"

"You don't even know what that means."

"Natsu said it's a ceremony for two people who love each other." Dammit Natsu.

"Do you love daddy?"

"He's my friend yeah."

"So you'll marry him?"

"No sweetie."

"Why not?"

"I'll tell you when you get older. Go to sleep baby." I kiss her forehead. I wait until she falls asleep and slip out of bed. I leave the room and close it.

"You told my daughter we're here so you can marry me?" I hiss at Enji, who was still surprisingly awake.

"No. She was half asleep. I told her we're here so I can get to know them more and marry you in the future."

"I want you to stop talking about marriage and us to my children. I will never marry you. Got it?" Enji looks at me shattered. He nods. I walk to the door.

"Y/N can we be together tonight?" I look at Enji. "Hell no."

"Please? We can just talk." I inhale deeply.

"Right now I don't want to see your face. Especially not after the dream I had. I've been alone for five years. You can be alone for two months." I walk back into the room and close the door. I get back in the bed.
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I was going to make this trip in Mykonos Greece but bringing the twins along I just said welp...Disney World it is🤧