My One and Only: Endeavor x Black Reader

Chapter Twenty-Three: Disney World

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"Hey look it's Mickey and Minnie! Go say hi." I point. I let go of their hands and they run off. I smile as I watch. I take photos with my camera. They hug them. I grab their hand.

"What do you want to do next?" I ask.

"Princess Tiana!" Vikhyati pipe up. We start walking around, looking for her. We find her. I let go and they take off.

"They seem pretty happy." Enji comments.

"Disney is like a drug. Although they need more Black Princesses." I reply as I take photos.

"You're not wrong. But at least they look happy." I nod in agreement. Next we took them on the spinning tea cup and then went shopping. Enji went on a few rides with them alone and I took pictures.

"I want you to sleep with me." Enji suddenly says while we eat lunch. I give him that look.

"I don't mean it sexually." I keep giving him the look.

"Y/N we've been here for two weeks. Our bed is bigger. We can sleep on two separate sides. I know the twins can sleep alone. I want to be there for you. I know you keep having those dreams."

"I think coming here on vacation with you is a mistake."

"Our next vacation will just be us two. Anywhere you want to go."

"Really?" I ask, eating.

"I don't go anywhere without my twins."

"You should. You deserve to. Shoto can watch them and the others can help." I shake my head no as I cut the meat.

"I don't let my kids help out with raising them. But they did. For the first few years. Because on top of my depression, I developed postpartum depression. That took a toll on me. I was there during their milestones but I wasn't mentally there. For their first birthday, I had enough before we sang them happy birthday. Once they started walking, they followed me everywhere and I would lock them out of my room. I would run from them. It felt like they were chasing me. I couldn't be around them. I even yelled at them. That's why I can't be apart from them. I owe it to them. For the rest of my life." I explain.

I didn't realize I murdered my food until Enji placed his hand on top of mine, stopping me.

"Stop blaming yourself. It's not your fault. It's mine. I caused this. All of it. I understand why you hate me."

"I don't-" I let out a sigh.

"I don't hate you. Not anymore. Do I care for your existence? No. Do I care if you drop dead right now? No. Do I love you? No. In order for me to move on, I had to stop caring. I had to stop caring about you. Your mental health. To stop caring if I did ruin our friendship and our relationship as parents. I had to stop caring that you were never coming back. I faked it until I made it. And now I made it. I only care about myself and my children. Nothing else matters, especially if it doesn't benefit us.

That's why I never went back into the dating world. There wasn't going to be any growth. Nobody's going to want a single mother of six. And I don't care that nobody wants me. Men ain't shit. It saves me time and a headache. I don't want my children to get attached to them and when it go south, everyone is disappointed. It won't be easy explaining to two five years olds what happened to that nice man. I've fulfilled my life and I have a duty as a mother to take care of my children. All I want is to see the twins grow up and my four eldest start their own family. Touya's engaged to Prescott so I'm excited for their wedding. Whether they have kids of their own or not, is up to them. All I want is happiness for my children." I explain.