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Kabanata 9

Kabanata 9

Ancestral house

Alev has been so clingy all the way. Nakakairita pero gusto ko. He has been like that all these hours parang sarap sabunutan ng lalaking ito but for some reason I don't to hurt him in any way possible. I want him to feel safe and comfortable in my company.

Sinapak ko ang braso ni Alev na nakakapit sa akin habang naglalakad kami papunta sa room.

He pouted.

"Stop it!"saway ko pero parang bingi lang siya na mas lalo pang humigpit ang kapit sa aking mga braso.

"Hindi!"pagmamatigas niya, still pouting like an idiot.

Grr. If he was not this beautiful I'll punch his face pero sayang naman ang kaguwapuhan ni Alev para sapakin ko lang. Hindi ako nakapagtiis at sinabunutan ang kaniyang buhok. I was beyond pissed, aryt?

Napaungol siya sa ginawa ko at hinimas himas ang buhok at matalim akong binalingan ng ugok. Napatigil naman ako sa paglalakad at natulos sa aking kinatatayuan. My heart beats so fast like it was running a kilometer. I bit my lower lip when my eyes gaze in his lips.

I can't resist myself. I can't stop this. Once I was got addicted to a something it will last for years or could be possibly forever and I don't want to get addicted to it. I don't want it, ever.

Pinisil pisil ko ang aking mga daliri dahil sa bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. This feeling is very weird, I mean, in my whole existence in this world this is just the first time that I eve felt it. This weird feeling that sent millions of butterflies in my stomach.

Moments had passed, the feeling was still the same just got more heavier and weird.

Someone block our ways. Doon, nabalik ako sa aking ulirat gayun din si Alev. The awkwardness suddenly consumed us. Nagpatuloy kami sa paglalakad ng wala man lang ang nagsasalita sa pagitan namin. As if, afraid of what we could say. As if, afraid of making wrong decisions.

Nakapasok kami sa loob ng room ng hindi man lang nag-uusap. Pati na rin noong natapos ang buong klase. Even if we are ready to go home. No one talk to us. And, this was the most awkward moment in my life. I can't remember when I felt this much awkward but as far as I know this is just the first time and I can't forget it ever.

It was written in the history of my life.

Tahimik ako buong biyahe pauwi ng bahay at mukhang napansin iyon ni kuya Lander. He acted so concernly but I just don't mine him. As long as he was not approaching the first step to talk to me then I'll shut my mouth until he is the one who'll initiate the talk.

Moment gone by.

Kuya Lander then, spoke.

"I was bothered of something I don't know I needed to ask but to be so sure I'll lower my pride and talk to you, Alina."wika niya sa akin at napakagat labi ako.

No. I can't tell him what I am feeling at this moment towards Alev. No. I wasn't ready. Not now. And, of course, I wasn't sure about this feeling. Baka kasi maglaho rin ito kalaunan all I need to do was to wait for it to fade. Maglalaho ito kalaunan at mamumuhay ulit ako alinsunod sa gusto kong paraan ng pamumuhay.

I can't speak or even compose a sentence. I was afraid.

"Did something is bothering on you, princess? Is there any problem that you want to talk about? I'm all ears."said he, eyes on the road.

I shrugged.

"Wala naman, kuya."I replied.

Pero, mukhang hindi siya kumbinsido sa aking mga sinabi. Hindi naniniwala sa kasinungalingan ko and I know that he knows that I got a big problem. Duh, he's not Lander Emmanuel Vegafria for nothing.