[Check Announcements] Vengeance But At What Cost? (Male Reader)

Chapter 10 "(Y/N)'s Thoughts" [Season 1 END]

I wonder if you'd be proud of me...

Proud of what I've become...

Proud of the things I've done.

Rob and John...

I sometimes stay up at night and wonder...

What would life had been like had you not killed yourselves?

Had we stuck through and persevered 'till the end.

All three of us.

Would it be better?

Or would it be worse?

Could we have gone to college together?

Work together?

Anything, dammit!

Just something... Something that wouldn't leave me alone...

Something that wouldn't have caused you two to kill yourselves!

...

Do you two even know how much it hurt me to see you die?! How mentally taxing it was?!

You two just—Just up and fucking die!

Killing yourselves!

...

It hurt so much...

All I could think about was what I could've done better?

If I could've done better?

If only I were stronger...

Braver...

I...

I got your revenge...

But is that even what you would've wanted?

Pfftt!

What am I saying?!

Of course, you two would want your revenge!

...

I really wish I could've made them feel exactly how you felt when they bullied you.

But I couldn't.

So, I made them fear me.

I broke their minds. Their bodies.

Those bastards don't deserve to live.

Really, early after I ran away, I thought about just ending it all. Killing myself.

Multiple times.

I mean, I would see you guys in my dreams, but not the way I'd wished.

You looked to your right and saw Rob and John both there.

But even now, you're just a figment of my imagination...

You're still dead.

That is the crushing reality at the end of those days.

And I'd still be alone. That's why it hurt so much...

Sitting up in bed, you'd look to your right at John and Rob...

And tears welled up in your eyes.

Why did you two leave me, man...

You'd hold your face while holding back tears.

Ah, I can't be crying right now...

You started wiping away your tears with your forearm.

I'm... I'm not quite ready to forgive... Well, I'm not quite ready to let go of you two just yet...

You wiped your tears before your facial expression would go back to neutral.