Treat you better

Chapter 47 - What moves me

ROSALY

- Why can't you come to Canada with me? - Shawn asked sighing as he zipped up his last suitcase.

- You know why, Shawn. Let's not argue about this right now. - Rosaly hated it when they argued. It was her last moments with Shawn before he went home, and she didn't want to waste time on an argument that wouldn't lead to anything.

- Sometimes I think you don't love me enough, Rosely. - Shawn said, looking directly at her.

- How can you think that? I've already proven to you in every way that I love you. How can you doubt my feelings? - Rosaly couldn't believe that Shawn had actually said that. She was suffering as much as he was from their separation, and Shawn didn't seem to understand how hard this decision was for her. If only he knew that because she loved him so much she had to let him go. She couldn't put him at risk, didn't he understand?

- You could prove yourself to me one more time, leaving all your past behind and coming with me to Canada. - he came closer and took her hands in his. - Please, Rosely, let's be happy together, how she wanted to give in, those eyes almost convinced her that they could live together in peace, but she couldn't weaken now. She needed to be strong, even if inside her heart was torn with pain.

- Shawn, I can't. Try to understand. As long as Caio is out, I can't be with you. I wouldn't forgive myself if you got hurt in this whole thing. It wouldn't be fair to you," Shawn released her hands and looked at her indignantly.

- Do you know what I think, Rosely? That you don't want to be with me, and you're using this whole thing with your ex-fiancé as an excuse to dump me. Why don't you just say to my face that you don't want me anymore, that you're tired of being the pop star's girlfriend. That you've had enough fun and now you've had enough of me? - Rosaly felt as if someone had slapped her in the face, but deep down she knew that Shawn was saying all this because he was hurt and angry.

- Shawn, I love you. Nothing would make me happier than to get on that plane and go away with you, leaving all my complicated life behind. But, understand. I feel trapped. There isn't a single place in the world where I feel safe. I need to feel free so that I can love you without fear or ties," her eyes were filled with desperation, and Shawn's were filled with sadness.

- Are you really going to let this guy take over your life like this? Are you going to give up everything we have because of a coward who's only done you harm? I don't understand why you want to give up everything. - he came closer again and touched her face tenderly. - I told you I can protect you, Rosely. I have security guards, I can hire more if you want. I'll do whatever it takes to have you with me, but please don't let me get on that plane alone," his voice was so pleading that Rosaly's heart was clearly breaking. She had to summon the strength to say.

- Baby, I can't understand. You can't protect me twenty-four hours a day, and I don't want to live like I'm in prison. I want to be able to walk down the street without having to look back to make sure no one is following me, I want to be able to do everything I love without fear of being surprised by a crazy person who could show up at any moment and hurt everyone I love. I can live with the idea that Caio might hurt me, but I could never live with the burden of guilt if he did something bad to you. - she touched him on the cheek, and hugged him around the waist.

- I can protect myself, Rosaly. That's not your job. - he said, touching her hair and hugging her tightly.

- You don't know Caio. He would find a way to hurt you.

- Rosely, I..." she interrupted him.

- Please, Shawn. I don't want to talk about this anymore. I've made my decision, and I'm not going back on it. - She lifted her head, looked up into his eyes, wrapped her arms around his neck, and brought him closer to her lips. - I love you, Shawn. You have no idea how much," her mouth searched his and then they kissed with a passion and desperation that left them both heartbroken and sad.