Shared|| jasper hale and emmett cullen

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Phoenix's pov
Jasper talks as Emmett's hands roam "I used my persuasion to join the civil war. After two years I was promoted to being major. I came across a woman named Maria and she turned me. We were together but she was just using me. I fed on people and she turned people using them for her army to fight. Newborns get weaker within their first year and I was using my gift to lure them in to rid of them. Which resulted in these scars" showing me them. My heart breaks for him. I kiss his scars gently. "Eventually I did everything for Maria. I could feel everything and eventually i felt her going to turn on me and I left. The blood lust didn't get easier. Alice found me. Told me that she saw me in a vision and that I was to go with her and I'll find my mate eventually. The diet isn't easy for me to maintain. Hearing the flow of you blood is hard but I wouldn't change it. My upbringing as a newborn makes this so much harder and I'd hate to hurt you because of it. That's why I pushed you away Darlin. Not because I don't want you or I plan on leavin. But because I'm afraid of myself"

I grasp his face "jasper I trust that you'll never truly hurt me okay. And just as I did with Emmett we can take precautions for it. You'll be able to tell even more if im truly hurt. I want this with you jasper and I can see you want it too. And that's okay. It's okay to want something" "I don't want you Darlin. I need you. But I can't put my needs over your safety" he sighs. I tell him "it's my choice just as much as it is yours Jasper. And I choose you, we'll be careful" and I kiss him and he smiles into it "promise that if you're in pain you'll say something" I nod "promise" "we can work on it" I add. He nods "thank you"