Worthy Of Love

Moonless nights

Jimin

"Hyung! Have you seen Jungkook today?" I asked Namjoon Hyung as he walked towards his class, I quickly closed the distance between us.

"Nope. I was so shit faced last night that I just came to attend the afternoon classes, I missed out on all the morning classes. Areum and I didn't even know when we ended up crashing at my place last night." He replied, throwing his arm around my shoulder as we walked.

"Wasn't Yoongi Hyung also with Yuki Noona yesterday? Did he go back home?" I asked.

"Nope, didn't even see a hair of his head 'round our apartment. I will see him in the studio this evening though, you need something from him?" He said.

"Not really." I said and pouted before continuing "Must be nice....being in a relationship, I mean."

"Are you salty right now? I thought you made a 'no relationship' pact after Suyeong." Namjoon Hyung snickered at me as he jerked me towards him.

"Well, that was a year and half ago. And given everything, I was allowed to make such wishy washy pacts."

"Yeah yeah, but where is this suddenly coming from?" He asked with a amused voice before stopping in his tracks and asking me with wide eyes which were perfectly round "Wait. Is it the girl from yesterday? The one Jungkook brought with him?"

"Wha- no. No. I am just saying.... I would also like to have someone I could rely on. And not just have people to screw around once and not be interested in them the next morning." I tried to cover for myself, I wasn't ready for the secret to be out before I have talked to Jungkook.

I knew I sounded like a total dick when I talked about my one night stands, but it is what it is. Batting fake eyelashes, trying to act cute with me just so I would ask them out on date and practically refusing to leave or let me leave was not something that I fancied, I never had any ill intentions or words to say about the women I hooked up with but I did not appreciate being asked that whether I would want to date them when I clearly stated that I was not interested in anything more. It had happened one too many times now, so much so that I had stopped approaching people to sleep with.

Olivia was different on the other hand, we would talk late into the nights whenever we met. Sex or not, we wouldn't ask questions that we didn't need answers to, on some days we would just lay there, in comfortable silence as the night engulfed us and eventually sleep overtook our bodies. It was different, I didn't feel the need to leave from her side every morning. I had somehow come to appreciate her presence near me. Just like today morning, as she slowly ripped herself away from me and I felt the bed on her side growing cold almost immediately. She felt comfortable, like I knew she wouldn't prod but at the same time, I knew I was safe with her. Whatever I gave her, she would keep it safe.

"Yeah alright. Just a piece of advice, to whatever you are doing. Don't assume, talk it out and clear your conscience before making a decision." Namjoon Hyung said breaking me away from my thoughts.

I stopped in my tracks with the sudden advice that Namjoon Hyung imparted on me. It was as if something clicked inside me in a flick of a moment.

"And....what if.... whatever I am doing, might eventually hurt someone I care about?" I asked, pushing my luck, hoping that I wouldn't get caught.

Namjoon Hyung looked at me for a minute, a knowing smile on his lips but his expression one that of adoration. I knew he wasn't judging, out of all of us, he was always someone who could be relied on when you fucked up. He let out a sigh, his shoulders relaxed as his tall legs walked over to me. Closing the distance between us within five steps.