Unexpected

Chapter 41

CHASE'S POV>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

To be honest I was scared. I thought Eloise was gone forever. I thought I would never hear or see her again. And all I will see is her mother. But thank god I was wrong and that she's safe. 

Safe with me.

I see Jade walking out the room with a smile on her face. "How is she"? I ask her.

"She's doing good, I'm also glad she is safe". Jade says keeping her smile.

I let out a sigh of relief. "Can I go see her"? I ask Jade with a raised eyebrow.

"She's all yours, Well literally but I mean yes you can". She tells me. I let out a chuckle.

"Thanks I'm going to go in right now", I say walking towards the door. I open the door slowly to see Eloise in her closet grabbing my sweater. 

She kept my sweater. 

I smile.

"You kept one of my sweaters"? I ask her leaning against the wall. She nods.

"It helps me feel safe. When your not around I put it on to smell you and for me to think your with me. Which helps me keep calm". She whispers looking down at the ground.

"Well you don't need it now I'm with you". I tell her taking a step closer. 

"If you keep stepping closer we're going to die", She says.

"It's a theory it doesn't mean it's true". I say.

"We can't take any risks or both of us will die". She tells me.

"Well maybe I want to die. Maybe I want to be in the after with you, just us by ourselves we can be together holding each other like we were meant to be". I say. 

"I really want that too, but we can't do it now. We have to wait to see if the cure works. Maybe we can hold each other in the real life instead of the after". She says lying down on the bed with my sweater. 

"I don't want to wait for the stupid cure. I want to be with you now. We could have had the cure now but instead your mother had to come and ruin our plans". I say rolling my eyes.

"Chase come on, your making it harder for me". She says twirling her curly locks in stress.

"I wasn't trying to make it easy". I say with a smirk. 

"It's really not the right time to be smirking". She says rolling her eyes. 

Eloise.... the eye rolling. I tell her stepping closer. 

She steps back, "Code rainbow"!. She shouts. 

"Eloise what are yo"-.

"Eloise are you ok"? jade and Jaslyn says busting through the door. 

"I told you to stop stepping forward and you do not listen", She says her voice raising.

"Eloise don't you understand I can't anymore. I don't want to wait I want to be with you now". I tell her with tears welling up in my eyes. 

"Well what about me? Your not asking what I want. Your not asking if I want to die. Your just doing this for yourself. I am not ready to leave my bestfriends and my brother." She says.

"The promise? Was it all a fucking lie"? I ask tilting my head to the side. I can feel my anger building. 

"We said we'll do it if the cure doesn't work. And the cure isn't even made yet". She says.

"I DON'T WANT TO WAIT FOR THE STUPID CURE"! I shout at her. 

She flinch's. "Well I do". She says slowly. 

I shake my head walking out the door.

Am I being selfish? 

Hey Chase you ok? Randy asks. 

I don't answer. 

I don't want to talk. 

To anyone.

I open the door to my room and sit on the bed. I look at my table to see some prescriptions.

I already have the angry drugs. 

They just don't know about it. 

And they never will. 

I shouldn't but I want to do it.

Without thinking I grab the the prescriptions.( Which are pills) And dump all of them in my mouth.

I take a few but the others fall out of my mouth. I took 20 pills and I ate 10. 

I start wobbling around the room. My vision blurring. 

Why am I doing this? 

I stare at the ground. The ground turning red. My vision turning red. Everything inside me becoming red. 

I lay on my bed. I feel like I'm fucking floating. 

I feel so pissed off. I can't control it. My body feels weird. 

I take some of the pills from the floor and put them in my mouth. Eating them all.

 I want more. 

"I need fucking more". I mumble.

"I want more". I whisper

Flashbacks come back to me. I groan from the pain. 

"Your disgrace".

"All you do is take drugs to help with your anger."

"You are nothing to anyone nor us".

"We all fucking hate you."

"Everyone fucking hates you".

Voice's appear out of no where. And they don't go away.

"No mom please don't say that. I know you love me. You just don't know how to show it". I whisper.

"It's ok I know you mean no harm. I'm sorry for killing you. I didn't mean to be a disgrace". I mumble. 

"I love you, I love you so fucking much". I mumble.

"I have a girlfriend". I say giggling. "She loves me a lot", I say getting up from the bed wobbling to a picture of Eloise.

I fall to the ground. 

Why is she pushing me away? Is she scared of me? Did I scare her?

Why is my head hurting?

"Eloise my head hurts". I say as loud as I can which is really not that loud.

"Help, please my tummy hurts too", I Whine cuddling with Eloise's dinosaur blanket.

"You smell like strawberry's", I say inhaling her scent. 

"I love strawberry's", I mumble closing my eyes.

I feel sleepy.  

I slowly close my eyes but quickly opening them. 

Eloise doesn't care about me. 

I thought with tears rolling down my face. I never cried this much before. 

But now I am. 

I love her too much but does she love me?

I close my eyes again drifting off to sleep. 

I hope she loves me.