Don't Look Me in the Eye

Pain

I take in a breath that feels so small and unreal.
My heart is beating within my chest
Yet I feel like it'll stop soon.
I feel like I'm drowning with every puff of air.
I pray to the gods above to help me through this.
It hurts but I'm still alive.
I have loads of time yet no freedom.
I'm chained up by the emotions so cruel.
My heart is heavy in my chest.
The love of my life unaffected by this.
They walk free and away from me.
They ripped the love right out of my chest.
It hurts but they seem so happy.
So happy when they are not with me.
They are whole while I'm falling to pieces.
I'm pretending to be so happy so they don't worry.
It takes so much of my strength to smile so wide with happiness I don't feel.
I breathe in but it feels like I'm choking.
I breathe out and it feels like my last.
I'm trying to pick up the broken glass that has become my heart.
It just cuts me deep with blood so red on that glass piece.
The rose that I grew with my love is now wilted.
I can't water something so lifeless.
No matter how much I try.
So I'll sit on the ground surrounded by petals that once where part of something so beautiful.
The tears slip down my cheeks
as I close my eyes and fall asleep.
In the end I understand.
I wouldn't choose me either.