Your Twinkling Eyes

Twenty Six

Tami🦋
I sat on a random bench at the side of the road sobbing softly.. I didn't understand why I felt so hurt about the fact that he was back together with Naomi, but I did and it was killing me.
Then the fact that he didn't even want me to know, refused to tell me the real reason they broke up and had been acting so weird about my relationship with tony.
Everything was just so messed up!
"There you are, I've been looking all over for you.." Desola said sounding concerned and relieved to see me..
"I'm sorry... I just, needed to get away from them as far as possible" I answered wiping my cheeks with the back of my hands..
"What's wrong Tami?" Desola asked sitting next to me on the bench..
"I just feel so hurt, and angry.. he always does this thing. It's like a toxic back and forth between us.. I just don't know what else to do, I'm not supposed to feel this affected by him but then I do and it's honestly driving me crazy!" I ranted putting my face in my hands..
I felt a soft tap of desola's palm on my lower back the action really soothing causing me to relax a bit..

"Everything's going to be okay tami.." she said softly causing me to raise my head up to look at her..
"You sure?" I asked
"Yeah.. I know it seems really rough right now but you'll get through it.. I don't exactly know the history between the two of you and whenever you're ready to tell me I'm here for you. But all I know is that he'll come around, he's your best friend Tami.. He's probably acting like this because he doesn't know any other way to deal with what is currently going on with him" Desola answered giving me a warm look her words giving me comfort.
She was right.. Derin only knew how to deal with hurt by distancing himself from me or anyone else.. When he and Naomi split, he refused to talk to her and hated her.. when he found out about Sayo liking me he ignored me for weeks.. same with tony..

Did Naomi hurt him?, Is that why he refuses to tell me the real reason they split up.. Have I recently hurt him?.. Is that why he's so closed up lately because he doesn't know how to communicate with me?.. He deals with his feelings like this.. how did I never notice it?.
Oh my god, I've been so much in my feelings to realize that he was also going through the same thing.. Derin was hurting and all I ever did was curse at him for being a dick because he wouldn't talk to me..
Was I that selfish?
All of a sudden, Desola's words made me realize what has entirely being going on between us and I felt guilty than ever for not realizing it on time. I needed to talk to Derin.

"Thanks Desola" i said deeply appreciating her being here for me.. She gave me a side hug smiling in the process as she answered me "Anytime roomie"
I chuckled to that, my phone immediately ringing showing that I was getting a call from Tony. A bright smile immediately came up on my face, Desola making kissy noises making me laugh as I picked up the call feeling really happy to hear his voice..
He always knew when to call me.. my mood maker..
"Hey my love.." he greeted his voice erupting butterflies in my tummy..
"Hi.." I muttered softly
"I'll just be right over there.." Desola whispered teasingly giving me space to talk to tony..

I stood outside of my dorm as I waited for Derin to show up. I texted him immediately after my call with Tony that we really needed to talk and he responded with an okay. Whatever was going on with him, with us, I was going to clear it all up tonight..
It's time we really did talk to each other about everything..
It was almost curfew but I had begged the gateman for a few hours with Derin before he locks up finally. I saw Derin's car driving towards me before he finally stopped at the gate getting down and leaving Amos alone in the car. I watched him walk towards him, his face void of any emotions but he still looked amazing as always, the night sky illuminating his handsome face as he walked closer to me with both hands in his pockets..
He always managed to make my heart skip a beat..

"Hey.." he muttered..
He was right in front of me this time, his eyes glaring into mine as he stood still waiting for me to say something. I immediately hugged him, the action surprising him and knocking him off guard as I buried my face in his chest..
"I'm sorry about what I said.. I didn't mean it, I was just really angry about everything." I muttered softly hugging his stiff body tighter..
"Tami.., it's okay" he answered causing me to release him from the hug as I stared up at him with a soft smile as I watched his hard features soften..
"Can we talk?" I asked nicely giving him a warm look as I looked up at his eyes.
"Sure."
We walked towards a bench that sat underneath a nice tree a calm silence settling between us. I glanced at him to see him playing with his watch..
I needed to do this.. I have to..
"Derin, do you really like Naomi?" I asked softly watching him keenly..
"I guess.." he answered his gaze still on his watch.
"You know I'm always on your side and I'll always support you.. please talk to me" I pleaded looking at him hoping for him to say something.