Your Twinkling Eyes

Thirty One

Tami🦋
It's been over a week since the night I kissed Derin. I don't know what came over me that night, or what pushed me to do it but ever since then I've been hiding from Derin. If I managed to see him around, I'd dodge his presence or run in the other way just to avoid him.
I know it's pretty immature of me, but fuck! What exactly would I say to him?
I have a boyfriend, and he has a girlfriend yet I...

Unknowingly watching where I was going I bumped into someone, the tiny voice breathing out various curse words... irritating me a bit.
"I'm so sorry, I wasn't watching where I was going." I apologized raising my eyes to meet that of a short black girl in thick rimmed glasses with bushy thick hair which really stood out on her head.
"No shit Sherlock!" She spat out in irritation giving me a scowl causing me to shrink back in slight fear at her.
For someone so small, she sure was extremely intimidating.
She didn't even wait before storming off making me wonder what her problem was. As I was about turning away from the hallway I spotted Derin holding hands with Naomi as they laughed and chatted about something, their close proximity igniting jealousy in my chest as I stared at them.
I see he's still dating her, I guess my kiss meant nothing.
I was standing still glaring heavily at them not realizing that Derin had already spotted me. Immediately our eyes locked, his irises flashed surprise and then slowly moved into a frown as he held my gaze..

Tami, get the hell out of here!
He immediately stomped towards me the same frown still on his face and before I could make my get away he was already dragging me away to God knows where!. He immediately pushed me into a small room at the back of the faculty locking the door behind us causing my heart rate to increase in anxiety.

He stalked towards me, holding my gaze intently as I swallowed my saliva hoping that I don't get pulverized by his anger. It was quiet for a short time, just us staring at each other waiting for the other to probably say something.
"What the hell Tami?!" He spat causing me to flinch.
"Hey... uhm, hi.." I stuttered nervously not knowing what to say..
"Did I do something wrong?" He asked softly, his eyes becoming warm as they gazed into mine...
Of course not, is that what he's been thinking... if anything I'm the fool here...
"No..why?"
"Cos you've been avoiding me tami, that's why." He answered still holding my gaze causing me to slightly choke on my saliva.

Okay Tami.. just chill, what're you gonna tell him? The truth! No, think of some other excuse. You can't tell him that you've been avoiding him because of the kiss.
"Derin, I haven't been avoiding you.." I lied bitterly ending the eye contact.
"Oh really tami, you think I haven't seen you run the other way countless times every-time you sighted me." He pushed on getting closer to me, the space in between us not that much causing me to inhale his cologne and he smelled so good.
Focus Tami! Shit, I honestly thought I was being subtle...
"Derin, I'm sorry.." I whispered softly staring back up into his eyes getting lost in them..
"Tami, why would you ever want to avoid me? I thought we were best friends.."

"And we are... I just, after that night I assumed things between us would become different and awkward and I guess I wasn't ready to deal with them yet" I finally admitted softly biting my lower lip nervously unable to look up at him.
I heard him sigh in understanding, his hands holding my arms "Do you want things to change between us tami?" He asked softly and suddenly the air between us became hot and tense.
"I...I don't know.." I nervously answered..
"Look at me tami.."
Slowly raising my eyes to meet his, the intensity knocking the breath out of me as I stood still in his arms..
"Nothing's ever gonna change between us, yeah you kissed me.. and so what, friends kiss each other right?" He said his words not making me feel any better.
No, friends do not kiss dumbass!
"Besides, you were an emotional mess that night considering what tony did. So I understand why you might have felt the need to kiss me, you were probably missing him..." he said absentmindedly causing me to stare at him in shock...
What the heck is he talking about?! He thinks I kissed him because I missed tony?..

I immediately redrew from him feeling upset with his words.. He noticed the frown on my face wondering what it was that he had said wrong.
It's time I made things clear...
"I didn't kiss you cos I missed tony.." I replied staring back at his confused face.
"Pardon?"

"I didn't kiss you because I missed tony.." I repeated holding his gaze... as I watched his calculating eyes...
He took in a deep breath, probably desperate to know my answer. " then why did you kiss me?"
"Because I wanted to."

"Derin, I kissed you because I wanted to and not because I was emotional over my dumbass boyfriend. I'm sorry if it's been bothering you ever since, that day was just really bad for me and you made it all better and it seemed like the right thing to do at that moment." I explained confidently as he stared at me in shock.
Wow, did I just somehow confess my feelings to Derin?..
"I hope things can still remain the same though but I just wanted to make things clear that kissing you wasn't a mistake." I finished, the air really tense around us as I left the room without hearing what he had to say with a confident smile on my face.

Authors note:
Well daaaaamnnnn!
That took gutssssss!
Tami finally somewhat said it!
Wow... I hope you loved this chapter

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