Your Twinkling Eyes

Thirty

Tami 🦋
Tony never came back..
And the orientation was almost over, I just sat there feeling so many emotions all rush in at once. Anger, disappointment and frustration. He didn't even act like my boyfriend at all, he was just all over Clarissa all through.
Maybe me having mixed feelings concerning us isn't a bad thing.
I felt someone sit next to me smelling really nice, I turned to look at who it was only to be met with Derin staring softly at me.
"Hi" he said giving me a small smile.
I wasn't in the mood for smiling at all. I was fuming in anger but I masked it with a passive look.

"Hey.."
"Don't frown because of the idiot, doesn't suit you" He said giving me a wink trying to get me to smile but it wasn't working because apart from the anger I felt towards tony, I also was really hurt by his attitude.
My phone beeped showing that I had an incoming text message from tony. I opened it reading it hoping that he maybe realized how wrong he acted today and wanted to apologize but I was far from that.. really far.
Hey tami, I honestly didn't realize how fast the time went while I was with Clara. Uh I won't be able to make it back for your orientation, I'll talk to you later okay.. love you.
I didn't even realize how hard I was clenching my fists in anger as I read his text message, my forehead showing lines due to the intense frown on my face.
"Tami, are you okay?" Derin asked sounding really concerned.
I just stood up abruptly as I left the auditorium not bothering to look at him or answer his question. I wasn't going to let him see how much I was affected by Tony's text, how hurt I was. I ran out of the auditorium rushing into the female toilets and locking myself inside one of the stalls as I sat on the toilet seat, with my phone in my hands..
Tony was such a dick!
I didn't even realize that I was already crying until I saw the droplets hit my phone screen. I couldn't even understand why I was crying, why it was affecting me so much. I shouldn't cry over him, he's not worth it.
But then.. I've never felt so used in my entire life.. he obviously seems to fancy Clarissa.
She's beautiful, popular, classy and from a rich family. What did I expect? That she'd be some simple girl like me?.. Of course not, I was just kidding myself.
I'm no where Clarissa's status.. so I'd understand why he'd ditch his own girlfriend just so he could hang out with her..

I cleaned my eyes with the back of my palms trying to remove any evidence that I had just finished crying. I took in a deep breath, opening the toilet door as I got up and walked out only to be met with the piercing eyes of Derin causing me to let out a surprised shriek.
What was he doing in the ladies room?!
He leaned on one of the zincs, using the back of his hands as support his piercing eyes not leaving mine with his long legs stretched out. I just ignored him, feeling vulnerable underneath his scrutinizing gaze walking towards one of the zincs it wash my hands.
As I washed my hands, I could still feel his eyes on me and I was starting to get really frustrated. I turned off the tap finally turning to look at him, freezing a bit when our gazes locked.
"What're you doing in the ladies room?" I asked finally finding my voice.
"Did you cry?" He shot out forwardly, ignoring my question. My eyes widened a bit wondering how he knew before immediately masking it with a blank expression.

"No, why would I cry.."
"Tami.." he said softly, his eyes giving me a sense of warmth.
"Derin you should leave, this is the girl's toilet" I stated giving him a hard look but I knew he could see right through me.
How hard I was trying to look strong in front of him.
"I just wanted to see if you were okay" he said giving me a soft look sounding concerned about me.
"As you can see, I'm perfectly fine" I answered trying to act indifferent.
He slowly held both my hands, causing me to look up at him in slight confusion..
"You don't need to act tough in front of me tami, I'm here for you baby.." he said his words filling up my heart as I stared at his mesmerizing eyes.

"I saw everything that happened tami, Tony's such a dick. He was very insensitive towards your feelings and acted really badly today. He doesn't deserve your tears, or you.. So please don't let this affect you. You're way too sweet for this" he said his words offering me comfort causing me to tear up immediately hugging him...
"Thanks Derin, for always knowing what to say.." I said hugging him tighter loving his smell..
Derin always knew how to make me feel better..
"Anytime baby, anytime.." he whispered as I released him from the hug looking back up into his soft eyes..
The atmosphere suddenly shifted as we gazed into each other's eyes. Derin slowly leaned in as I patiently waited for what was about to happen next. He was about to kiss me when we both heard a loud knock on the door, realization kicking in causing the both of us to immediately move away from each other..
And again.. I almost kissed Derin..
"Is someone in there?" The female voice said in frustration.
Derin and I stared back at each other, my eyes widening in realization. That girl mustn't see Derin in here, she'd completely misunderstand the entire situation. I immediately pushed Derin into one of the stalls, closing it as I walked towards the door unlocking it as I stared back at Serena.
Oh it's the girl Zach can't stand..
"Oh, hey Serena" I greeted
She gave me a strange look before entering "why was the door locked?"
"Oh.. uhm the door was jammed actually.." I lied
"I see, well thanks for trying to get it to open.. cos I really need to pee" she said rushing towards the stall where Derin hid almost opening it causing me to scream immediately startling her.
"What?!" She asked in annoyance
"You can't use that toilet" I rushed out
"And why can't I?" She questioned
"The toilet's broken.. trust me, plus there are flies in there. Totally disgusting" I lied again as I watched her expression turn into that of slight fear..