Meeting Dan (Danisnotonfire)

Chapter 6 - The discovery

We finally finished our takeaway and the time was 10pm. We all decided that we should watch a couple of films before bed. "What do you want to watch Ivy?" Dan asked me pointing at his enormous DVD collection. "Oh, i don't mind! It's up to you." Dan looked at me with that look on his face. "Honestly, you choose. Me and Phil like every film here, and i don't want to pick one that you don't like. So pick a couple that you want to watch okay?". I smiled at him and lifted myself off the sofa to go and look at the DVD's. I couldn't believe how many there were! I was a huge film buff and thought that i had a decent size film collection, but this was something else! I must have been looking at all the films for over ten minutes, but i finally decided on 'What happens in Vegas' and '21 jump street'. Two of my all time favourite films. 

First, we put on '21 jump street.' We all found the film hysterical and were laughing at the most random parts of the film. We were all laughing to the point where we were actually crying. After the film ended and before we put on the second film, Phil jumped out of his seat and asked us if we wanted snacks and drinks. Me and Dan both looked at each other and nodded simultaneously. As Phil was in the kitchen Dan looked over to me. "I can't believe you actually agreed to stay here tonight. How lucky am i 'eh?!". I just looked at him and laughed. "You lucky? You must be kidding. I'm the lucky one here. Lucky to have someone who cares about me as much as you do." He smiled and held out his arm signaling for me to lean on him. I placed my head on his chest and put my legs up on the sofa. He had one arm round my waist and the other one was holding my hand. I'm glad no one could see my face at that point because i was almost crying and was blushing like an idiot!

Phil came bounding back into the room holding a bottle of Fanta, two packets of oreos, some Cadburys chocolate and a big bag of doritos. Me and Dan grabbed the oreos and began to dig in. We stayed like this for the entire film, and as the film reached the romantic conclusion, i felt Dan gently kiss the top of my head and squeeze my hand even tighter. Does this mean he is thinking of us being in a romantic relationship? Maybe this is just a coincidence. I have no idea what is going on right now. 

Dan reached into his pocket and looked at his phone. it was1:45am. "Well, time for bed i think" He said, whilst sitting himself up. "Yeah i'm shattered, i'm heading to bed, i'll see you guys in the morning!" Phil came over and hugged us both and headed into his bedroom. "So, sleeping arrangements.." This is all Dan said. Giving me no options or anything. I sat up and looked at him, deep in his mystical eyes. "Well, what do you have in mind?" i asked him. "Well, my bed is pretty big to be honest, so there's plenty of room to sleep in there without us being cramped. But if you don't want to then that's cool. You can have my bed and i'll chill on the sofa. It's entirely up to you." I didn't even have to think about it. Why would i pass up the opportunity to sleep, cuddled up next to the guy of my dreams. "I'm sure the bed will work for both of us perfectly." I leant over to kiss him, without even thinking and it took off from there. We were lying on top of each other on the sofa and remained there kissing for what seemed like forever. Suddenly, the door opened and Phil hurried out wearing his Mario pyjama bottoms and a grey t-shirt. "Oh, umm, sorry guys, forgot my water". He quickly scurried into the kitchen, grabbed his drink and ran back to his bedroom before me and Dan even had time to think. "Well, i think that's our cue to head to bed" he laughed. he stood up and took my hand and lead me into his room. 

When we entered i stood there and realised something. I had nothing with me. No pyjamas, no make up remover, no clean clothes, no toothbrush. Nothing. Dan took off his top and looked over at me. "You alright?" he asked, sounding slightly puzzled. "Yeah i'm fine, i just realised i have no pyjamas or anything on me, and i don't really fancy sleeping in these clothes." I looked down at what i was wearing and decided  that wasn't an option. Dan went over to his wardrobe and threw over some grey jogging bottoms and one of his t shirts. "Will this be okay?" He asked. I nodded and took the clothes and hurried into the bathroom. I pulled off my trousers and put on his joggers. On a skinnier girl they would have looked quite appealing, hanging off her small waist, but as i was a bit bigger, they just fit round my stomach normally. I took of my blouse and vest and put Dan's top over my head. It smelt just like him and fitted pretty well. I took my hair band from around my wrist and went to tie up my hair in a bun and that's when i remembered my cuts. If i knew that i had been staying the night  i would have brought a hoodie to cover up my arms. I began to panic and looked round the bathroom to see if Dan or Phil had any jumpers or hoodies lying around. But there was none. I tried to keep calm and thought of what to do. 

I wanted to hide both my cuts and tattoo. I am not ashamed of my tattoo at all, but i didn't know if Dan liked them or not, and i didn't want to put him off. I thought i would just keep my arms down, and when the lights are off, he will never know. I tried to make myself look normal and i left the bathroom. Dan was sitting on his bed looking at his laptop. I put my clothes down in a pile on his floor and edged my way over to the bed. He must have noticed that i was moving strangely as he put his laptop down and sat up looking at me in a weird manner. "Is something wrong?" he asked. "Umm, no nothing i'm fine honestly." I perched on the edge of the bed and couldn't look at him. I could feel the tears coming again. No, you look ever uglier when you cry. Dan can't see you cry again. He will think you're pathetic. 

He moved over the bed and sat next to me and put his arm around me. "Hey, remember what i said. You can tell me anything you know." Without thinking, i put up my arm to wipe away my tears. "Oh my god. Why didn't you tell me Ivy?! That tattoo is amazing!" I turned around and looked at him, shocked by what he had said. "Really?".. He took my arm and analysed the artwork, looking at every minor detail. My tattoo was the MCR black parade logo, with MCR written underneath in script writing. "I never knew you liked My Chem" he said, not being able to take his eyes off of my arm. "Yeah, massive fan. Been my favourite band for ages". I sighed a huge sigh of relief. I was so happy he accepted me for who i was. "Why have you been hiding this from me?" I looked at him, and felt like an idiot explaining myself. "Well, i wasn't sure if you liked tattoos on girls, and i didn't want you to hate it and not like me as much." He laughed and smiled at me. "You're silly. I think tattoos are awesome, and nothing could make me like you less. Seriously!". I smiled and finally felt settled. "Come on, let's get some sleep". I got off the bed to turn the light off and when i went to get back in. It happened.. 

Dan grabbed my arm, to pull me in the bed with him, which normally would be fine but it was my cut up arm. As he grabbed my wrist i couldn't help but let out a scream because the pain was immense. Dan jumped and quickly turned on his lamp to see me crying and cradling my arm. "Oh my god i'm so sorry! What did i do?!". He was so concerned and he tried to take my arm but i stood up and cowered in the corner of the room. Dan got out of bed and walked over to me. I knew this was it, i knew he would find out now. There was not stopping it. He gently reached out and took my hand in his. He stretched out my arm revealing the many cuts there were. I couldn't even look at him. I looked the other way as i felt him move his fingers over my arm. "Ivy,, why..?" I turned around and saw the tears form in his eyes. "I'm sorry. I couldn't tell you." We both began to cry and he took me in his arms and just held me. He sat me down on the bed and went to collect some tissue, cream and a bandage. He crouched down on the bed cleaning over the cuts with the tissue and warm water he collected. Before applying the cream, he gently kissed my arm up and down. I had never dreamed that anyone would be so considerate about my cuts. I thought he would be disgusted and not want to be in the same room as me. He put on the cream and the bandage and looked up at me with those big brown eyes. "Don't you ever do this again, okay? If you feel like you want to, pick up the phone. Call me. Any hour of the day or night, i don't care okay? I'm always going to be here for you okay?" I nodded trying not to cry again. He got into bed and put out his arm. I got under the duvet and snuggled up next to him. He switched off the lamp and just held me. Cuddling me, kissing me, playing with my hair. And we didn't speak about the cutting anymore. I was glad. We just cuddled up with each other for the entire night. It was heavenly falling asleep in his arms.