Meeting Dan (Danisnotonfire)

Chapter 8 - The truth revealed

When i went into the apatment, all the lights were switched off and there was pure silence. I guessed that Leah was already in bed. I quickly used the bathroom and then headed into my room. Before i got ready for bed i remembered i had to ring my mum. I picked up my phone and called our home phone number. "Hello?" "Hi mum, it's me!" I was so excited to talk to her. "Ivy! How are you?" "Yeah i'm good thank you, how are you and dad? And nan and grandad?" We went on to talk for a good 45 minutes, just having a huge catch up. I told her everything about Dan and to my surprise she was really happy for me! It felt good being able to talk to her and my dad. "Well, i best be going mum, but i'll ring you again soon okay?" We both said our goodbyes and hung up the phone. 

I headed to my wardrobe and pulled out some clean pyjamas. I pulled out some checkered pyjama bottoms, and my Liverpool football club t-shirt. I jumped in bed and curled up under my duvet and before i knew it i was fast asleep. 

I woke up the next morning feeling dreadful. I didn't know what was wrong but i really felt awful. I crawled out of bed and headed into the kitchen to get some painkillers. Leah had already left for her work place so i was alone. I grabbed some water and walked back into my room. I heart my phone vibrate so i went to see who it was. I had a text from Dan:

"Hey babe. I don't know what the plan is for today but i have some stuff to do for my next video, but we could meet up tonight if you want?xx" 

I really wanted to meet up with Dan, but i knew i couldn't. I hadn't felt this ill in a long time. I had to bring myself to tell Dan i couldn't see him. I don't know why i thought this was such a big deal, because it wasn't. I knew he wouldn't mind. 

"Heya. Well, i woke up today feeling absolutely horrible and i'm not sure what's wrong with me and i am still in bed, so i don't think i can see you later, i'm sorry:( xx" 

I really wanted to just cuddle up and watch a film, but i didn't have a television in my bedroom at the minute. So i grabbed my dressing gown and headed into the lounge carrying my duvet over my shoulder. I collapsed on the sofa and began to look for something to watch. There was nothing really on during the week so i knew i would probably end up watching countless numbers of repeats of the Jeremy Kyle show. 

As i got comfy i felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I pulled it out and saw that Dan was calling me. "Hello?" i answered. I sounded so rough, like an 85 year old man. "Hey you, how are you feeling?" He sounded so caring, it was so sweet talking to him. "I feel like death to be honest. I'm just going to have to stay here and rest all day. I'm just lucky it's my week off work! Sorry i can't see you later, i just can't go out right now". "Right, forget the video, i'm going to come over okay? We can just chill and i can take care of you." I really didn't want Dan to see me like this, but i couldn't pass up the oppurtunity to see him. "Well, only if you're sure? I don't want to ruin your plans." "It's fine honestly. I'll just shower and be at yours in about 40 minutes?" We said goodbye and i was excited to see him. 

Although my head was banging and i could barely walk, i stumbled to my bedroom and had to make myself look somewhat more decent. I couldn't be bothered to change my clothes so i just put my hair up into a messy ponytail and shoved some foundation on my face. My skin was breaking out horribly so i needed to cover up these spots somehow. It sounds sad i know, but even though i had Dan always telling me how beautiful i was, i could not bring myself to believe it. 

I sat watching TV for a while when all of a sudden there was a knock at the door. I went over to open it and there i saw Dan, standing there in his usual black skinnies with a t-shirt and jumper and a massive bag over his shoulder. "Hey! Thank you so much for coming over, and i'm sorry for looking so dreadful." I looked down and he gave me a huge hug. "Hey, you look beautiful, so shh, okay?" I laughed and we both headed into the lounge area. "I brought over some soup, and this jumper and also just some stuff for me because i didn't know how long i would be staying over, and funnily enough, i don't think i could look good in your clothes like you do in mine!" I couldn't help but laugh! "Well, that could be argued." I giggled and we both snuggled up on the sofa and flicked through the television channels. 

After a while Dan stood up and asked me if i would like a cup of tea. I nodded and as he went into the kitchen, i headed into my room to grab my laptop. When i walked back into the lounge Dan was sitting on the sofa with two mugs of tea in front of him. I sat on the sofa cuddled up to him and signed into my laptop. I just wanted to quickly check my emails and tumblr quickly and that's all. I didn't want to do anything to waste my time with Dan. We were sitting there quietly when all of a sudden Dan randomly shouted out: "oh my god, i saw the funniest harlem shake video earlier, i have to show you!" Without thinking i laughed and handed him my laptop. I leant forward to get my tea and left him to what he was doing. 

As i remained sitting forward still flicking through the TV, i felt a sense of unease. I put down my tea and turned around to see Dan staring at the laptop with the most puzzled look on his face. "What's wrong?" I asked. My voice was shakey. I had nothing to hide, but i was still anxious as to what he had found. "Um, you do realise your YouTube account is still signed in on here yeah?" I just looked at him. Why was this a problem? "Umm, yeah, it stays signed on.. why?". He looked at me and turned around the laptop so the screen was facing me. Dan's channel was up on my screen. At first i didn't understand why he was showing me this. But then it clicked in my brain. It showed that i was subscribed to him. "Why didn't you tell me?" I began to shake, i didn't know whether he was mad at me or not, but i didn't know what to say. "Umm.. I.. Just.." It was so awkward. "So when that girl came over to us the other day, you knew exactly what was going on? And you sat there and pretended you had no idea who i was when i was explaining my channel to you?". I began to really panic. "Look, i thought that if you knew that i was subscribed to you, and that i watched your videos, then you may not have wanted to be with me. I always hear YouTubers say how they would never date a 'fan' or someone who watched their videos because they would find it strange." I felt tears forming in my eyes, i thought he was going to end it with me there and then.

"Look Ivy, you should have just been honest with me! Don't cry! I'm not mad, i'm just kind of surprised that you didn't tell me after all this time. But to be honest, i can see why you did it. But i love you okay? I really do. So from now on, just be honest with me, yeah?" I smiled and nodded, wiping the tears from my cheeks. He took my hands and pulled me in for a kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck and just put my head on his shoulder. I was so glad that i no longer had to lie, and he was totally okay with it.  All my worries just went, and we had the perfect day together. 

We ended up watching Catfish: The tv show for what seemed like forever. We really got into these kind of shows, it was so funny seeing his reaction to it. At lunch time, Dan made me and him soup and we snuggled up on the sofa watching all of season 7 of family guy. "So, am i staying here tonight or...?" He would always come out with these kinds of things so bluntly. I couldn't help but laugh. "If you want to, then you know you are more than welcome to stay here anytime". He pulled me closer towards him and we planned what to do that night..