Meeting Dan (Danisnotonfire)

Chapter 14 - life or death

Dan's POV

I just sat there in the back of the ambulance looking at her pale, fragile body. I couldn't work out how this had happened. She was fine at the party, she seemed fine this morning. What made her do this. As I sat with my head in my hands trying to work it all out, I was interrupted by the young male paramedic shouting; "We need to hurry it along we're losing her back here!". I felt like my heart was being ripped out. Was this because of me? Did I do something wrong? "Woah, what do you mean losing her? She's going to be okay isn't she?". He didn't have time to answer me. The machines started beeping uncontrollably, and before I knew it her top was being lifted up again and he placed two large paddles on her chest. "Stay clear!" he shouted, and then I saw her body lift up again. But I couldn't run away this time, I had to face her. The paramedic put down the paddles and began to push down on her chest again. I reached over and grabbed her hand, squeezing it, hoping this would somehow help. "Come on babe, you're strong, you can pull through this." I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks at this point.

The ambulance came to a sudden stop, before the back doors flung open and a group of doctors were there ready to take her into the hospital. I jumped out the ambulance and hurried behind them as they carted her indoors. As we reached two large double doors a young female doctor stopped me from going any further. "Sorry sir but you're going have to wait here." "Wait here? My girlfriend could be dying in there and you're telling me I can't be with her?!". I didn't mean to be so aggressive towards the nurse but I was in a state. "I'm sorry, someone will be out to talk to you as soon as we have some news." And with that she turned around and headed through the doors. I walked over to the uncomfortable looking blue seats and collapsed onto them. Tears began to stream from my eyes, and I felt like I was going to be sick. I couldn't make sense of anything. We were happy. She was the girl I was planning to have a future with, how could this happen? I just kept on sobbing, waiting to hear some news..

Phil's POV

As soon as I saw the ambulance take off I headed straight for Leah and Ivy's apartment. I wasn't too sure how I was going to tell Leah what had happened, but I knew I had no time to waste. I had seen Ivy laying there, motionless on the floor. Surrounded by blood and pills. I knew that this didn't look good for her, but I couldn't say this to Dan. I needed to be positive for him. As I reached the apartment I sprinted up the stairs and reached the girls door. I viciously knocked on it hoping that Leah would be quick to answer. Soon enough the door opened and Leah stood there in pyjama shorts and a baggy t-shirt. "Phil? What are you doing here? This better be good." I stood there and began to shake, I didn't know what exactly to tell her, because quite frankly, I didn't know much myself. "Look Leah, we need to get to the hospital okay? There's been an incident and Ivy has been taken there in an ambulance so we need to go okay?". Without even questioning anything Leah nodded and ran to her room to change into some jeans. She came running back out wearing some blue skinny jeans, still wearing the baggy t-shirt and had her hair up in a messy ponytail. She pulled on her grey converses and a hoodie before following me out of the apartment.

After waiting for what seemed like forever for a cab, we eventually managed to hop into one and make our way to the hospital. We made our way to reception and spoke to the nice looking blonde girl who was tapping away at the computer. "Hi, sorry umm, we're looking for Miss Ivy Johnson?". "Okay, can I ask who you are please?". "Yes, we're her friends, her boyfriend is already here with her but we need to make sure she is okay." I caught Leah out of the corner of my eye trying to fight back the tears. I myself wanted to burst out crying, but I knew that I needed to be strong. "Okay well you can't see Miss Johnson right now unfortunately, but I can have a nurse direct you to the waiting area nearby where she's currently being treated?" I nodded and smiled and we were soon taken my a young nurse to a cold, bleak looking hallway. As we walked through one set of doors I saw Dan sitting on one of the seats, his head in his hands and sobbing uncontrollably. I ran to his side and he immediately jumped up and hugged me as soon as he saw me coming. "Oh my god Phil, why is this happening? What if she doesn't make it?". I tried again to fight back the tears but this time I just couldn't. "Look Dan, she's going to be okay I know it, just keep positive okay?". He nodded and smiled a half smile at me before sitting back down in his seat.

I suddenly felt a light tug of my coat sleeve and turned around to see Leah pulling me towards her. I headed over to her and tried to smile. "Phil, how bad is this? What actually happened tonight?". She had a right to know. She was Ivy's best friend and I wasn't going to keep anything from her. "Well, Dan called me earlier to say that he had found her in the bathroom unconscious and surrounded by pills and blood. She had cut her arms really badly and it looks like she tried to end her life. She had no pulse or anything but they eventually got one, and now here we are." Leah's face just dropped as I finished explaining. She couldn't seem to work it out. "I umm.. n..need some air." And with that she ran down the hallway towards the exit. I wanted to run after her, but I knew that she probably just needed some time alone.

"Mr Howell?". I turned around to see a stern looking doctor asking for Dan. "Umm yeah that's me, how is she? Will she be okay?." "Miss Johnson has sustained some very serious wounds which have caused a large amount of blood loss, and i'm sorry to say that the next 24 hours will be critical. We're not sure if she will pull through or not. But if she makes it through the night, then she has made it through the worst." Dan just nodded with tears streaming from his eyes. "Well can I see her?" "Yes certainly, just give us a few minutes and I will send someone out for you." Dan thanked the doctor and sat back down on the seat. I was about to ask Dan if he wanted a coffee when his phone suddenly began to ring. He looked at the caller ID and handed it over to me. "it's Alfie. Can you speak to him, I can't deal with it right now." I nodded and took the phone from Dan's shaky hand. "Hey Alfie? Yeah it's Phil, sorry Dan can't speak right now." "Oh hi Phil. Yeah just a quick question really, I was wondering does Dan want me to take down the video I uploaded of his party?". I was so confused as to what Alfie was saying. Why would Dan want this? "Umm, i'm pretty sure he probably doesn't, why what's the problem with it?." "Well I was looking through the comments earlier and there are some really nasty ones aimed at Ivy, and I don't want her to see them and feel bad or anything." Oh my god, this was it. This was the reason we were here. This is the reason Ivy was fighting for her life. Anger overcame me, but I tried to keep calm, because none of this was Alfie's fault. "Umm, yeah probably a good idea to take it down, look I need to go, I'll speak to you later yeah?". I hung up the phone and looked over at Dan who shot me a questioning glare. I knew I had to tell him.

Dan's POV

Phil sounded so unsure on the phone to Alfie. I wanted to know what was going on. I just looked at Phil waiting for him to tell me what Alfie had said. He wandered over to me and sat down on the seat next to me, with his hand on my shoulder. I knew something wasn't right. "Phil..? What's wrong?". He took a deep breath before saying.. "Look Dan, Alfie was wondering if you wanted him to take down the vlog he filmed at your party because umm, there was some really horrible comments aimed at Ivy in the video.." My mouth dropped. This was it. This was why she had done this to herself. I felt rage build up inside of me. How could the viewers do this? How could they be so heartless. I pulled my phone back from Phil's grasp and dialled Alfie's number. Before he even had a chance to speak I began to frantically shout down the phone. "Alfie, it's Dan. Look don't delete the video yet, put it on private okay? I want to see it and I want to see the comments. Why? Well because i'm currently sitting in a shitty hospital corridor, waiting to see my girlfriend who is currently fighting for her life because she tried to commit suicide. And why you ask? Well because of those pathetic people who wrote all that nasty shit about her. So keep the video up okay? Because I want names of the people who did this to her." And with that, I hung up. I felt the need to let out all of my anger, but as soon as I stood up to head outside for a minute the tall male doctor approached me. "Mr Howell? You can see her now." I looked over to Phil who gave me a reassuring nod, and with that, I took a deep breath and followed the doctor into the room..