Maybe we can fix each other

Chapter seven | don't blame me

For the next couple of weeks nothing felt the same for Colin or Penelope.

Penelope desperately wanted to just have Colin off her mind. But it wasn't happening for her.

"Pen?" Her manager, Brooklyn, says softly as she grabbed her hand, "Are you okay?"

"Yeah," Penelope replies quietly, her train of thought leaving her.

After they finished the meeting, they were talking about her filming schedule for the next few weeks, Penelope walked out. And, of course, standing right there was Colin Bridgerton himself.

"Penelope," Colin said, smiling brightly.

"Colin," Penelope replied, trying not to let her feelings get the best of her, "I'll be leaving."

But Colin stopped her, saying, "Penelope, please talk with me,"

But Penelope didn't listen and walked out of the building.

"Penelope!" Colin softly grabbed her wrist and it stopped her.

"Colin, I don't want to talk right now!" Penelope replied, looking down because she couldn't bare to look into his eyes.

"Why won't you talk to me?" He let go of her wrist but stood still, looking at her.

"Because I can't fall deeper. Okay? Now please, I don't want to talk," Penelope tries to not let her emotions get the best of her but lately it feels like her emotions are always winning.

"Penelope I still want to be with you," Colin bursts out.

"And you think I don't? I'm fucking in love with you. Of course I still want to be with you but I can't," Penelope replied to him, she didn't know what to say after that.

"I never said I wouldn't fall in love with you, Penelope," Colin was quiet, kinda reserved but not exactly.

"You said you don't get attached to people. And falling in love with someone is so much more then just being attached to them," Penelope was quiet because she hated this whole interaction. Because he would never fall in love, and he knew that.

"Penelope you are the only person who I've truly trusted with everything. I want to be with you for a long time. I get that it doesn't always work forever but I don't want you to hate me. Or for you to think I don't care for you. Penelope, if I were to get attached to someone it would be you. And I mean that," Colin looked at her, she wasn't looking at him but he didn't take his eyes off of her.

"Colin, stop acting like your feelings will change. We both know they won't. They will never change. You've made that very clear to me. And I've excepted it, but I cannot keep falling in love with you," it takes everything in Penelope to not burst out into tears.

"Penelope, please. I'm not messing around. Being in a relationship with you has made me feel like my feelings could change," Colin is quiet, but he means everything that he says.

"We're already in the public eye with people thinking we broke up. After someone saw me leave your house crying we've been the center of attention again. And yes, I know we did break up but my show is about to be announced tomorrow. I don't want bad press around my name again. Especially because my feelings for you are all over the place," Penelope let's everything out and it had never felt so nice for her to say them out loud.

"Penelope I get that, but I mean what I said. My feelings for you are so strong in a sense," Colin looks at her, and Penelope finally looks at him.

The look in his eyes was pure. And full of a feeling she hadn't seen before. Was it love? She didn't know. But it was stronger then the way he normally felt.

She walked closer to him and pulled him into a kiss. Is was the most passionate kiss she had probably ever given him. But she didn't know where their relationship would go after this. If anything, this was to help her let him go.

"I love you. And I know you don't love me but I needed you to know before I leave us behind," Penelope says softly as she pulled away from the kiss but not fully away from him.

Colin softly pecks her lips again before hugging her. Penelope tried to hold back her tears as best as she could. But once Colin's hold on her was gone, she left. And she couldn't hold it in anymore.

A/N this was kinda depressing lol