Maybe we can fix each other

Chapter ten | i love you, ain't that the worse thing you ever heard

Colin knew now. He knew he was in love with Penelope and that feeling would never go away.

He had to tell her. But he knew she wouldn't answer her phone.

Was he a dumbass for doing this? Absolutely. But he was doing it.

"Penelope!" Colin says to her when he spotted her in the studio the next day.

"Colin right now is not a good time," Penelope replied.

"Penelope I need to talk to you, please," Colin says softly.

It takes everything in Penelope to not say yes. She does miss him and talking to him but she can't do this.

"I'm sorry, but I can't," Penelope replied.

"Please just let me explain," Colin says.

"There's nothing to explain," Penelope's holding back, and he can tell.

"There's a lot to explain," Colin calmly states.

Penelope finally gives in and softly nods.

"Penelope I finally figured out how I feel," Colin blurts out, "I love you."

Penelope looks up at him, his eyes meeting hers, "You don't love me, Colin."

"I love you, Penelope. I mean it. I love you more then I have ever loved anyone," Colin says.

"Colin, you don't love me!" Penelope shouts, "don't lie to me about loving me! You don't love me. I know you don't. You don't have to convince me of anything."

"Penelope! I love you! For fuck's sake, I love you!" Colin doesn't want to realize what she's saying.

"Colin don't lie to me!" Penelope is trying not to burst out crying again because gosh he's been messing with her emotions so much recently.

"I'm not lying to you! I would never lie to you! I love you more then you could even know. Do you really think I would be so cruel to lie to you about loving you?" Colin asks.

"Colin you can't do this to me." Penelope says softly, voice slightly trembling.

"Penelope I am in love with you just as much as you are with me," Colin replies.

"And that's exactly why I can't fucking do this. Because me falling in love with you was not a good thing! Most people would think it was but did you see the way my last relationship went? I can't go through that again," Penelope had never vocally said this but this is how she felt.

"I'm not Jordan," Colin whispers.

"I know you're not but I thought he would never hurt me and he did. I don't know what I can trust anymore. And I do trust you, so much. And I love you more then Jordan for sure. But I can't lose you. I'd rather have you be in my life as a friend then not at all. I care too much about you," Penelope says.

"I would never hurt you," Colin says softly.

"I know you wouldn't. But I can't lose you. You are the only person who has ever truly gotten me. And I need you," Penelope's teary eyed but she couldn't help it anymore.

Colin brings her into a hug and she accepts it.

"I'm not lying though, I do love you," Colin says as he kisses the top of her head.

"And if I bring myself to believe you, I'll be right back to you," Penelope giggles "but I will always love you."

Colin couldn't help himself and cupped her chin, pulling her into a kiss. Penelope's arm goes to the back of his neck as she kissed him deeper.

"Everything is so confusing, but we'll figure it out. Eventually but we will," Colin whispers once they had pulled away.

"We will. As long as we don't lose each other, okay?" Penelope replies.

"I could never stop talking to you," Colin smiled.

Penelope brought him into a hug again before the two parted from each other.

A/N I hope people see what I'm hinting at ;)