Hidden Feelings ~ STEDDIE

12-Fears ~ Steddie

Family Video Store - Morning

It was early in the morning, Steve and Robin were inside the store bored out of their minds. They really wanted to go hang out with the kids at the arcade but, couldn't.

It's been 3 weeks since Eddies' incident and from time to time Steve thought about that moment. It finally hit him that he needs to clean up Eddie's trailer. So, he planned on going down there and making it look nice. He had to face his fears.

Everything at once was running through his mind. The kiss with Eddie, his love for Eddie, the trailer, and the traumatizing thoughts pressing in his brain. He wished they would go away.

"Hey, dingus. You alright? You seem stressed." Robin asked while nudging his arm, "Stressed. Wow, that is an understatement." Steve confessed while staring at the door to see if anyone would come.

"Steve, you know you can talk to me. I'm your best friend." Robin announced with caring in her eyes. Steve locked eyes with Robin and said, "I'm fine, please stop worrying about me. Okay, cause it's going to eat you up. Anyways, how are you doing?" Steve asked concerningly.

Robin froze. She didn't know what to say. No one has ever asked that in a while. After a second she just lied and responded with, "Yeah, dingus. I'm okay...hey why don't we listen to music cause there is obviously no one coming."

Steve nodded with a smirk.

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8 hours later - Closing Time

They were ready to leave. When Robin jingled the keys to lock the doors.

"Hey!! What do you think you're doing!!" Younger Steve yelled.

"What the hell?" Steve whispered confusedly about the repressed memory, then shrugged it off.

It was a quiet ride to Robins' house, when they got there he told her that he had to go do something. She didn't question since she was so tired, mostly out of boredom.

Steve went to the trailer. Grabbed everything he needed to clean up the mess.

After a few hours he cleaned up all of the dried-up blood and he managed to throw up only twice. Which is a record instead of throwing up 4 times.

When he finally got back to Robins' house, he saw Eddie sitting on the porch smoking a cigarette.

"Harrington, where have you been?" Eddie asked worriedly while standing up and stepping on the cigarette.

"Uh...just cleaning up some things," Steve replied with a tired look.

Eddie came close and just hugged Steve. It felt like they both needed it.

"Hey, you know you didn't have to clean my trailer. What happened to me wasn't your mess to clean." Eddie confessed while holding onto Steve's face.

Steve didn't question how Eddie knew he was cleaning the trailer. Instead, Steve gave Eddie a look in his eyes and started to cry.

He usually never cries but, this time he didn't care.

He started crying into Eddies' neck. Every moment of that night came back.

Eddie knows it wasn't Steves' fault.

Steve still blamed himself even though none of it was his fault.

"I'm sorry, I don't mean to cry...it's just my fault. I should have been shot instead of you." Steve mentioned while crying.

"Hey, hey. Steve this isn't your fault. You hear me..and don't say that. None of it was your fault. You need to stop blaming yourself. We both couldn't predict that would happen." Eddie replied sincerely while cupping Steve's face and wiping his tears away.

They both just looked at each other.

They both knew they wanted to be together.

But, Steve was too damaged to be in a relationship right now.

Eddie didn't mind waiting though, he would wait forever to be with Steve.

After a minute or so they both went inside.

Steve went into the shower and got dressed. He went into Robins' room to see if she was alright.

Robin was laying in her bed probably having a dream about Vickie. Steve did feel guilty and was worried about Robin...he wish he knew how she was feeling..but he just closed the door and went downstairs to Eddie.

By the way, it's just the 3 of them. The kids are at their own houses that night.

Steve and Eddie were just talking. Eddie was trying to make Steve smile.

Nothing was working sadly, then Steve just laid down on Eddie's shoulder.

They were in silence the rest of the night till they both fell asleep, this time Steves' arm was wrapped around Eddie and Eddie was laying on Steves' chest.

Both of their hearts were beating so fast. They both just wanted to kiss each other.

Yet, Steve had shit going through his mind and Eddie didn't want to push anything.

They both are so confused about what they are at the moment.

I hope you like this chapter. I do feel bad for making Steve feel sad, but I promise things will get better.

By the way, I was thinking if I should create a different storyline of just Robins' point of view on all of this. I think that would be fun :)