AFTER 3MONTHS
it's been 3months after i had talk with duterte children and as of now my 3months pregnancy journal struggle are going quite well.
"manang let's eat kailangan mo paring kumain wag mong abusuhin ang sarili mo" rinig kong boses ni irene sa labas ng pinto, i sighed.
again and again can you just please leave me alone just for this day lang
"please irene ayoko" and then this is it again a tears forming in my eyes
"manang please para nalang sa bata" actually i can't stand up right now because my knees are turning into a jelly one everytime i'm trying to pull up myself, i can't even control myself and my emotion. kagabi pa ako iyak ng iyak
how can rod do this to me? ngayon pa na may anak na kami!
is this wrong giving myself on him? masyasdo ba akong mabilis?
Flashback
"rod babe are you there" i woke up with a lil bit dizzy because of the sunlight that keep facing me in the morning
"yea babe did you have problem, wait matatapos na ako" i heard him close the shower
"no babe i'm okay i'm just checking you" i said i heard him saying yes before i left infront of the door of our cr.
i have senate meeting right now and cynthia keep calling me about that, nabitin pa nga kami ni rod because of her.
napailing nalang ako bago sana papasok ng closet when i heard rod phone rang
i'm not pakielamera at all pero lumapit ako to check who's that when i see honeylet name in rod screen.
i tap the green button before i walk papunta ng balcony
"hello love? are you there?" bungad ni honeylet. her sweetly childish voice is all i hear. literal na childish
i didn't speak but i let her talking
"about last week did you enjoy that" i bite my lower lip to avoid crying but i can't help but there's a tear form in the egde of my eyes already
"love? why are you not speaking? did you want to do that again later. just don't forget i'm always free for you" hindi ko na napigilan ang mga luhang namumuo sa mata ko tuluyan ng bumagsak
nanghihina ako, why rod. why!
"lov--" i ended the call, I don't want to hear something pa about them
every words that honeylet telling to rod details by details is like a thousand of swords that slowly chopping every part of my heart.
"imee? who's that" narinig ko na ang paglabas ni rod sa cr.
hindi ako lumilingon sakanya but my tears keep falling, i'm now catching my breath. that's why i'm pinching my palm to calm myself
"babe?" i'm sobbing already when i feel his touches on my shoulder
"why are you holding my cellphone" kinuha niya na ang cellphone niya sa kamay ko
hinarap niya ako sakanya
"anong relasyon niyo ni honeylet?" lakas loob kong tanong habang nakatingin ng diretso sa mga mata niya.
"that's nothin--" i cut his words
"i need honest answer rod! those words that honeylet telling to me aren't just simple nothing!" he tried to hold my hand but i refuse it.
"you just miss understand it babe" i sarcastically smirked.
"that's bullshit rod. tell me matagal mo na ba akong niloloko?" tanong ko, hindi ko parin mapigilan ang luhang kusang kumakawala saakin
gusto kitang patayin rod! gustong gusto kitang tanungin ng bakit! bakit mo ako ginanito?!
"babe i love you you know that" he said
"is my love aren't enough rod? may dapat ba akong baguhin? sabihin mo rod meron ba akong kailangan ayusin saakin? rod please tell me para mabago at maayos ko!!!" hindi ko na mapigilan sumigaw
agad niya na akong yinakap
"babe please stop crying makakasama sa anak natin yan" naramdaman ko na ang paghaplos niya sa likod ko
i slightly push him.
"ilang beses niyo nang ginawa rod?" he frowned his forehead
"babe i didn't do anything believe me imee. mahal na mahal kita" i sighed before i directly look at his eyes
"rod i'm tired you just answering my questions with your bullshits answer!"
"babe please you just didn't get it exactly" i rolled my eyes
"exactly?! tell me is honeylet lying? because if you tell me that she's lying i will try to convince myself that fucking mistake is all my fucking misunderstand!!"
"babe that's not what i mean" i smirked
"you know rod just give me rest for a while" agad na akong umalis sa harap niya and about to left out when he grab my hand
"please imee. stay, hindi ko kaya" he said
"just please rod i need space please, kailangan namin ng space ng anak mo!" binitawan ko na ang kamay niya at tuluyan ng umalis
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i open the door and i see irene worriedly eyes infront of me, i panely smile.
"i told you i'm okay" i said she didn't respond but she hug me
i'm here on her house. siya lang talaga ang nasasabihin ko sa ganito
irene know how i suffer for my past love relationship so she keeps checking me minute by minute just to assure herself na wala akong gagawin sa sarili ko. my bunso is my saviour
"irene.." hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko ng naramdaman ko na ang pagtulo ng luha ko
"manang please don't think too much, yung baby mo" she reprimanded me
"irene...why would i need to feel this" tanong ko before we parted, she wiped my tears.
irene knows me. hindi ako iyakin but if i cried she know that i can't handle my emotion already.
"manang things are getting better soon pero for now you need to eat a lot because your baby needs that" she clide my hair bago kami bahagyang natawa
"and wait your favourite pamangkin are waiting on you downstairs she want to be in your side manang kaya smile na you have us" napangiti naman ako sa sinabi ni irene before we walk downstairs then i see my favourite pamangkin eating the macaroons that irene bought for her.
natatakot ako rod na baka hindi ka talaga sigurado saakin at nabibigla ka lang
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TEMPTATIONS OF US
Fanfictionbeing a loyal is choice, not by chance if you love each other, it means temptation cannot break the trust in between.
