TEMPTATIONS OF US

TIME

Imee PoV

i open my eyes then the white ceiling faces me up, i'm here again. at hospital for the second time what a dejavu.

"manang" it's irene but i still didn't move. i know why i'm here. i know what brought me here. i can still reminisce the every detail why i'm laying here. don't get me wrong, i'm nervous.

i put my hand in my bump. i want to cry so bad, do i did something wrong to make me feel this? all i want is a better family? better husband. better me, better child. better future but why is it hard to get that? why it's so complicated for us.

"anak" that's mama meldy, ohh so all of them are here, i'm still looking at the ceiling not bothering myself to look at them.

i don't need their sympathy, that just made me sick!

"did my baby make it?" for the second time, i'm asking them again for my baby conditions.

"babe" that's rod, i ball my fist as i bite my lower lip. i can't help but close my eyes when i felt tears running down through my face.

"answer me" i calmly ask and even i'm closing my eyes the tears of mine keep running down. i can't help it

they didn't respond, nauubusan na ako ng pasensiya.

i open my eyes kasabay ng pagtulo parin ng mga luha ko.

"walang balak sumagot?" i yelled that make their flinched to where they stand.

"manang calm down" that's irene again.

"you'll answer me o gusto niyo pang sa doctor ko itanong" i ask. looking at them without expression.

"uhmp manang"

"ano ngang sagot!!" i yelled again that make irene jumped.

"anak" that's mama meldy, "you need to calm down first" she added. did you think i can calm down here mama meldy!

"you rod! ikaw ang gusto kong sumagot" i look at him, his still sitting beside me while his head is in on my bed, he slowly look at me. i can see tears on his eyes.

dapat lang rod! dapat lang.

"wag mong sabihin pati ikaw hindi mo ko sasagutin?" he wipe his tears and about to hold my hand when i pushed him.

"i need an answer" i'm still looking at him, natatakot ako. natatakot ako rod.

a big sighed came out from him, then the next thing almost kill me when he finally answer my question.
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"our ba...b--y  didn't ma..ke it babe"

so my baby didn't make it?

my baby!

why my baby!!!

a strong slap landed on his face, "fuck you!!!!" i yelled then pulled the dextrose in my hand

"manang!" they about to hold me when i look at them firmly that make their stop.

"teka nga. isa isahin kaya natin tutal kayo namang lahat ang dahilan ng lahat ng to!!" i wipe my tears and look at them. what a unplanned reunion of us family.

"you irene and bong, specially you mama meldy! why did you hide the truth from me?" i ask, this is the right time to ask all of them.

masyado nila akong sinaktan at hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan ko to kakayanin kimkimin.

"because we love you very much anak, we need to do that either we like it or not" tumulo naman ang luha ko pero di ko parin tinatanggal ang mga tingin ko sakanila.