17:15
I'm at work in waltham rn. I work with Lin today and Charlotte in the morning. I'm happy because it's kinda slow and I've been tired lately. I'm not sure where I left off so I'll start with last Friday July 1st.
22:44
I worked on the 1st and it was really busy. I worked with Luigi and Charlotte. Probably the worse day I've ever had at work. The next day was my day off and I was going to decorate the store. I was also supposed to hang out with Matt but I got high and fell asleep. I went to work around 9 because I thought a certain store closed at 10 but it was closed when I got there. In other words I went all the way to waltham for absolutely no reason. Todd left and I had to finish working that day which kinda pissed me off but that's life and there's nothing I could do about it.
The 3rd.... what did I do. I worked in waltham I think. I don't really remeber and I don't wanna check the schedual.
The 4th of July I didn't do much. I worked at natick and hangout with Matt. We got high and drove into Boston to watch the fireworks which we never did. We did get food tho.
Matt is getting better in bed, he's doing all these new positions and different speeds and what not. It's hot. Well kinda, I kept seeing my Therapists face when we were getting at it. I didn't mind but I also did at the same time. At least I don't think of Todd anymore. Wow that was a phase.
Speaking of Todd, he cancled plans with me on Sunday to go shopping with his gf. I made new plans that we go to the club this Sunday, ego in providence. I hope he has fun, he needs it. Last Sunday I planned to go to chez-vous. I ended up going by myself and bought a pair of skates. I wanna get better before I go again cuz that was embarrassing.
I hung out with Lydia and her friend that I forgot the name of and we smoked week and got drunk. I kept fighting with whats-his-name. He was mad cool and I wanna hang out with them again.
23:12
Today was pretty good. I had work at 2:30, got to see Matt before the day started and before I got on the second bus I had to nice conversation with an older woman. She wanted to be a poet and she loved cats. She said that she just moved and was looking for one, I know that it might upset Layne but I can't have 2 cats. This lady had pissed herself and wanted beer. I tried to tell her that there is more than beer in life and you can't just wait for an end. I don't think she really cared about what I had to say but it was nice talking to her. I gave her the food I bought from bon chon and now that I think about it I hope that she likes it and can eat it because it was spicy tekkbokii, rice, and coleslaw.
Now that I think about it, I havnt eaten anything all day. Well that's a lie, I had Macaroons! I'm probably gonna have my drink that I turned into a popsicle that should still be in the freezer when I get back. I want to try and be better for myself like eat 3 meals and Exsersize. I have to take my T.
I was thinking of my cat just now and then Layne. I saw that they had more new cuts on there leg and I feel like that's my fault. I cut myself after uncle Jay's funeral and I think that triggered Layne. We had a talk about what we did together and it's still confusing to me. I do like Layne and If he said let's date then I'd drop Matt in seconds. I say that now but I don't think I really would.
23:25
I just got off the bus and I'm walking to my house right now. It is really quiet it was raining all day. I spoke to Tracy about becoming assistant manager or shift leader, and she said that she was going to get back to me. I hope that she gets back to me soon with an answer, because if the answer is no then I'm going to quit working at the Kung Fu tea in waltham. Just the thought of leaving Kung Fu tea is a bit scary to me. I have worked with Kung Fu tea for a little over a year now and this is the longest job that I've had. I've made lots of friends and became close with a lot of the customer.
To be honest, getting my life started, like going to college and getting my license finding a new job, all of these things are very new to me and I'm a little scared to grow up and get older. I don't know how I will turn out and I've seen a lot of adults now and how they've turned out how their life was before they turned out the way they did and I don't want to mess up or miss an opportunity. I just want to be happy and happy and way that I could wake up in the morning and want to get out of bed and I want to eat and I want to shower and I want to exercise and I want to study and I want to smile and laugh at people. That might be a little dark but that's just where my mind wanders, sadly very often.
Although it sounds like a lot didn't happen in the past 4-3 days, it did. My whole life is starting now and I can't wait for the next chapter.
Logging off
