00:02 I feel frantic. Like after yelling like that with Sissy I feel broken. Like life isn't real and my desire to die increased. I'm driving myself insane. The other day I was helping my lovely lainie do laundry and I wore ther bra and sat on top of the fridge. Then kept putting on there clothes and screeching up and down the hall.
When I'm alone I think that my life is an experiment and that something bad's going to happen to me now that I figured it out.
Sometimes I feel like a completely different person. I don't even wish to say it like that but while I was cleaning my room, I found a box of organized books and cds. I don't remember organizing the books. They'll be other times... I don't remeber how I draw things when I draw. As if there is an art me.
1) We can call this person Eew. He's passionate about doing art and skate boarding or roller blading, anything with wheels really. very observant, calm and loves music and nature. Wants to be an artist
2) There's someone else I guess we can call him Ellroy, he's very clean and organized. Very exact and down on himself about it. He like to be neat and organized and hates a mess. Takes care of the cat, want to be a surgeon, loves school.
3) Another one we can call zak, they like girly stuff like make up and fashion. Peircings and jewelry. Self sentered and all that. Very feminine side, gender natural and goes by they them, he him. Wants to be an influencer
3) here's someone else who is the complete opposite of zak. We can just call this one eezak, thinks he's ugly and fat and stupid and worthless and undeserving and waist of time and space. Eezak is sad, all the time, he's stuck in the past, in his thoughts. Thinks everything is a waste of time. suicidal. Questions there lo to for lainie. The Trans part, eating disorder
3) There's another one who is Buddhist and likes calm classic music, books, nature and art, (the visual aspect). wants to be an artist
4) I guess there's an adult, we call him Mr. Willyums. Does money issue stuff, drives, school, collage, work, takes care of the cat, into people business. Is the good advice e giver and helpful kind soul who want the be a sergon
I have a childish one, we can call him, zak zak, or little e for short. He wants constant effective and attention. Is mischeviouse and will play and hide and start trouble for fun, very silly and laughs a lot, addors the cat.
Seductive and likes to twerk. Shut, self degrading bad bitch, quiet.
I wrote everything down and organized it. Not im going to draw a look for each one. And seperater music and pictures
