The forbidden rule (MxM) (A werewolf story)

7

"When will I see you," Kenley said, hope in his eyes. Truth be told, I wasn't sure why I made this deal with him cause now I'm second-guessing it. I feel like I'm taking this too far and he will be the one to come out with a broken heart which I didn't want. It's written all over his face that he truly loves me, but I can't return that love.

No matter how much I try, I can't feel the same way as him. I just don't. If I was to love him, it would have been a long time ago but years had passed with us fucking,  and nothing I want from him, just sex. They say if you hook up with the same person for months or years, you eventually fall for them but that wasn't the case with me. I don't feel anything for the boy even though we had slept together for years.

I sighed looking at him from top to bottom, he was so beautiful. His eyes shone bright but something was missing.

"Kenley, do you think it's a good idea," I ask grimly not wanting to defy him when he had done his part. He showed me where the Demons were camping and how they do kill our people, he saved my life for sure and the things we passed through to find where they are, if I was alone, I wouldn't have found them, I never knew that Demons are that intelligent.

"You promised Kol, don't go and change your mind on me now when I have done my deal," he says starting to get pissed and I'm not in the mood to argue with him.

"I said I will make a deal with you after this but I think I will be hurting you," I say stepping in front of him and making him to look up at me "you love me Ken and I don't think I will ever return those feelings like ever, I'm being honest with," I say sincerely. It has been about some good years since we started this affair, and if I was to fall in love with him or choose him as my mate, I would have already done it, but each day I don't feel anything for him.

I feel nothing. My heart is empty.

"I will keep my feelings at bay Kol, just keep coming ok," he says voice creaking, tears at the brim. "It's enough to have you like this, please" he took in deep breaths.

"Don't you think you should use this time to choose your mate, I don't want to waste your time, and most especially I don't want to hurt you. you're precious to me Ken, you know that right" I might not be in love with him but I care about him so much, he is my friend, the person who consolated me when things got tough at the pack. He would listen to me without judging so I don't want to lose him over something so stupid as this.

"Kol, it's ok. It's just sex, no strings attached. I promise" he smiles blinking the tears back as he leaned in and captured my lips in a sweet kiss that would have melted my heart if I felt something for him but it was just plain like other kisses we had shared before, it was just a kiss, no butterflies like those people say who are in love. "I have to go home, father is looking for me and you mister should go to your king and save your life," he said after breaking the kiss a big smile plastered on his lips.

"Ok be safe, see you," we said goodbyes as I watched him get on his motorcycle driving off. I too got on mine driving in the other direction of the castle before Dean sends his army on me. Whoever told the witches about this, I'm grateful for them coz they saved my life, though I want to find out who did it, it's a very serious crime for witches and werewolves to talk about, so I think it's kinda weird.

Reaching the castle, it was late at night, I know people might be resting now but I have to report to the king before he does something. it took us more than four hours to walk to where the Demons were camped at. The lights at the castle were shining bright, the moon was half and shining in the sky and it looked beautiful. I used to have things for moons, they are so beautiful and I hope that my chosen mate will also love them as I do. The guards were positioned in their places as I passed by them going straight to the front gates.