The forbidden rule (MxM) (A werewolf story)

19.

I have been waiting for weeks and weeks for that one fucken call but did it come, a big fat no. I knew he was playing tricks, but my heart and mind chose to believe him so don't blame myself, the man looked serious when he said it and he never jokes around and if it was you, you would have believed him as I did.

What surprises me was, that I have been going to meetings and meetings at the castle, but he never says anything to me. He acts as if he didn't ask me on a date. What I have noticed was that before the meeting ends, he makes sure to move out without sparing me a glance or anything and I'm starting to think maybe he was avoiding me.

Only thinking that makes my whole body arch painfully.

That brings me to this question. Was I that into that date? Was I so excited that it hurts me that he hadn't called me.

Too bad I know the answer to that question and why does it hurt, why, my heart feel like it has been broken by someone who had been dumped without a fucking reason. Why am I feeling heartbroken?

I need a doctor coz I'm really fucked up.

Now I'm starting to second guess what he told me about having an heir. Was it true or it was a joke too? At this point I don't know what to think about the man, why did he tell me about having an heir, Why is he messing with my head? I hate him but I hate myself more for hoping for the impossible.

Fuck, fucken call me, or else I will call him myself and he will not hear the end of it. I almost laughed at the outburst in my head, who am I kidding, I can't call him, that's embarrassing as fuck. I think I have done that enough. It's time to throw all of it out of the window and live my life li...

"Again with the thinking" I took a deep breath gazing at Kenley who was looking up at me with those big beautiful eyes of his.

"Sorry, I have so much on my mind" I mutter kissing his nose softly.

"I thought I could take some stuff out of your system but by the looks of it, I'm doing a bad job," he says shaking his head in thought "I just needed some time with you. Only the two of us, not you and your thoughts" he added in a pained voice making my heart arch for him.

"I am here, Ken. Isn't that enough, you don't need all of me" I say sitting up not in the mood for this. He wants me in his bed and I'm doing it, what more does he want?

"Do you think it's enough for me? Hell, I love you Kol so much and I just wish one day you would choose me as your mate and leave everything behind for me as I am willing to do for you but even the small time you give me, you're always thinking about other stuff" he burst out and by the looks of it, he wanted to cry. I took a deep breath.

"Since the beginning, I told you where I stand with that and I told you a million times, I won't leave anything for you. This is my home, I belong here" I started pulling on my clothes wanting to leave. I'm not in the mood to argue with him right now. We've been through this and I'm not in the mood to comfort him while crying.

"We have been hooking up for years Kol, at least you should feel something for me" he wanted to cry. Gods this is bad. I pulled on my shoes in a hurry going to the door not replying to that.

"Don't forget your pills" I say unlocking the door.

"That's all you say after opening my heart to you. Why are you this selfish" this was getting out of hand? I turned to him with a deep sigh

"Ken I like you a lot but as a..." the way I pulled my phone out of my pocket when I heard it vibrant was beyond me, that's how it has been all these past days. Me, getting excited when my phone rings. Shit. The minute I saw who was calling me, I almost dropped the phone on the floor at how excited and nervous I was. I think my heart stopped for a second, my hands were trembling. I have been practicing for weeks, but here it is and I'm nervous shitless. He is calling.