for the music that turns off gravity

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nocturne op. 32 no. 1 by chopin inspired this one. my teacher is helping me learn how to play it on the piano and i am absolutely in love with it. when i play the piano, it is like wishing with my hands (if you read "i'll give you the sun" you'll know what i mean)

but currently i am also in love with the music of mitski, sir chloe, maya hawke, djo, etc. also "bardot" by raffaella is perpetually stuck in my head <3

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i sink into the keys,

these monochrome blocks

that are hope

solidified.

and when the sound swells,

i transcend,

carried on a wave of colors,

blurred beauty

and radiance,

and i am not transported,

careening into the moon,

but grounded,

helium in my heart

and i float up up up

but i'm still tethered here,

and never have i felt

more connected

to this world,

never has the past

bared its magic to me

like this.

these old pieces

are my time machines,

my escapes,

my stories

when words don't cut it.

if i cried

into the crevices

between the keys,

i know i would be

understood,

and every aching human experience

takes shape

beneath my hands,

and every soul

who has ever taken this piece

and coaxed it off of paper,

and let it rise and swell

and occupy sweet air

to paint murals in our lungs—

these souls melt off of the music

like hazy, golden ghosts,

and we all are floating

as if we haven't been drowning

just a moment ago.


love,

mari

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